Some days I feel like a worthless piece of shit. Like Im never gonna amount to anything and will be a life long dissapointment to my family. But when you are basically told these things at least once a week its hard to blow it all off after awhile. Today I was basically told to move out. Then after 20 minutes of yelling and screaming she told me ( Read more... )

Fuck my goddman fucking life!!! This is really fucking pissing me off. I need out of this fucking house. She sits and tells me she doesnt want me to come and beg and kiss her fucking feet but thats really what Im geting across here. She says I need to be more condiserate. WTF How?!?!?!? I always tell her if im gonna be late or when im not gonna be ( Read more... )

Its been so long I dont even remember the last time i updated in here.  There have been so many emotional things going on lately its just almost too much. Mike and I breaking up. Then me and Josh dating. Then me and Josh breaking up. Josh trying to get back with me and doing nothing but arguing (which is all he did in the relationship and the ( Read more... )

AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ok we are gonna pretend that that worked and i feel better

I think the title says it all.  Nights seem to be a really bad time for me.  I  get so lonely that I just dont know what to do.  Talking to him brightens up my night like you wouldnt believe, but then when he goes to bed I go through the floor. I dont really know why.  I think its just because when Im sitting here and I have nothing to do but think ( Read more... )

 So I was listening to the radio yesterday and this song came on and it seemed to fit pretty well with the events of the last week. I will admit Im a little down from it but I still think it was the right choice. That and with the developmet of a certian new friend. That helps a lot too. Its kind of a hit or miss when we talk but when we do talk ( Read more... )

So I was listening to the radio yesterday and this song came on and it seemed to fit pretty well with the events of the last week. I will admit Im a little down from it but I still think it was the right choice. That and with the developmet of a certian new friend. That helps a lot too. Its kind of a hit or miss when we talk but when we do talk... ( Read more... )

So I am happier than i was the last time i posted. Not everything has been worked out. really nothing has been. but my mood has improved. im still really stressed but a few things seem to be falling into place. we will have to hope they will. ive been a little happier with mike, but because he has gotten his ass in gear. its more like my attitude ( Read more... )

Ok so i know its been forever but i really need to let this all out!!  i feel like my life is crumbling all around me!! things with mike are starting to get rocky(my own doing but still) i still have no place to live and i feel like im about to use up my welcome, my jobs are keeping me so busy i cant even go to the store to pay a dang bill. my ( Read more... )

holy shit its been a long time since i typed in here..god i dont even remember the last time i put something in here.. ive been using myspace lately. but there are a few things i want to vent about that i dont really want to put in myspace!!! so anyways...totally happy with my relationship with mike. couldnt ask for better thus far!! for some ( Read more... )