This is my last week in this sucky brink of hell! I am going to go and work at Joseph Pontiac in Fenton next week! Doing exactly what I had done at Jim Waldron's. Then this Saturday Sarah is comming over to spend the night, and hang out with Ray, Mike, Zac, and Mike's new girlfriend of the month, Devanne. I think that this will be good for me and ( Read more... )

Tonight Ray is going over to Mike's house for his birthday party. And guess who that pretty boy assshole didn't invite? ME! Can you believe that? What an asshole. I even told Ray to remember what Mike had done for him as far as celebrating Ray's birthday... Ray called Mike continuously for a whole day before, and that whole afternoon and evening to ( Read more... )

Here I am another day in the swampy stinky brinks of hell. I cannot wait until this work day is over. I have to got to the school yet again this afternoon to get my teacher to sign some stupid paper so I can take that class I want. In a way I am kinda anxious to start school up this semester. But then again, I am always willing to start fresh, and ( Read more... )

Today I went up to my college and tried to sign up for classes. That was 1 hour wasted out of my life. I swear it takes 3 trips to do something that would normally only take one trip for a more intelligant school. I just got done talking to Sarah. We had discussed having a slumber party on Saturday night like old times. This will include but not be ( Read more... )

Yesterday turned out to be pretty fun. I am very anxious to start my volunteer work at the humaine society. I can come and go as I please, and all I do is just earn hours and points for more responsibilitys. Well, not necessesarily more responsibilities, but more things than just picking up poopie. But I can walk the dogs, and play with the kitties ( Read more... )

Yesterday seemed to dragg on continously. Like there was no end to the firey, buring, agonizing place I have to reside to called "work". There was nothing to do, no one to chit chat with and no speeding up for the clock. Today may seem to be the same as well. I am volunteering now at the Humaine Society on the weekends now. I have my first day of ( Read more... )

Last night Ray and I had the first BIG fight at our new place. He ended up leaving on his bike, and I took off in my car. Then, when we finally met up with each other, we refused to be the first one to say sorry. It is so weird. Just that when you fight with someone you care about, and you want so much to make up, but no one wants to be the actual ( Read more... )

Okay, I know that I said I was no longer going to write in my journal anymore, but I see it as more than just a line of communication, but it anles me to speak my mind. Which I like. I had a chance to talk to Sarah the other day to patch up some unwoven things that are between the two of us. I hope everything there is going to get better. And, I am ( Read more... )

This will be the last journal entry I am going to ever make. I give up on everything. My friends, their issues, worrying about them.. Everything. All I need in life now is Ray, my immediate family, and myself. I am sick of trying to protect my friends from themselves, and everything else. I am sick of being their friend with nothing in return. I am ( Read more... )

It has finally happened. I have finally figured out where I am in as far as "standing" in my life. And I think it will make me a better person. I am done with friendships, and all of the bullshit that goes along with it. I am tired of being everybody elses friend,a nd just getting shit on in return. For example, this is what has totally pushed me ( Read more... )