Ever have one of those moments where you are listening to something and it totally brings up old emotions that you didn't know were in you any more? I was walking home today and Coldplay's "FIX YOU" like struck some chord I haven't thought about it like a year... Its just funny because I had never heard this song at that point and it says perfectly ( Read more... )

Yeah. back from break. and what a break it was. well not really. but we'll pretend. My pretend spring break consisted of time spent in a big city, New York or Chicago, where there was always something to do, all of my friends and also lots of new people to meet. Miraculously this pretend spring break also had all the sleeping I needed to catch up ( Read more... )

"One of the things I learned the hard way was that it doesn't pay to get discouraged. Keeping busy and making optimism a way of life can restore your faith in yourself."~ Lucille Ball

No one ever tells you how hard faith and optimism are sometimes. Especially before spring break.

So after a fantastic 19 hour busride, I am home. It feels very strange. New Orleans was amazing, in both good and bad ways. The city is still in such terrible shape, considering that its been a year and a half since Katrina. Houses are still barely standing, needing to be gutted, waiting for families that most likely are not coming. There is still ( Read more... )

i am in a really weird mood today. Maybe its because I'm tired as all get out. yay for almost no sleep this weekend. its just a strange feeling of some kind. things are changing all over the place. I know I should have expected it. I knew things weren't always going to stay the same, I don't want them to stay the same. But I don't know, I feel cold ( Read more... )

awkward awkwardness is awkward.

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
the courage to change the things I can,
and wisdom to know the difference.

So quite an intense weekend overall. I must say though that I am happy that it happened. I feel like we all feel a little stronger and more sure about the realtionships we have. I love these girls more than anything, and it was really hard that we were going through a period when everyone felt uncomfortable or unhappy or un-whatever, but no one ( Read more... )

poop poop poop and double poop. I'm really sick of this. I am trying so hard to be there for everything and everyone for all the shit thats happening. But I'm getting lost. I feel like I am becoming a second priority for everyone that what I'm feeling doesn't matter because everyone else is dealing with such other, obvious shit. I really have no ( Read more... )

I've decided that this song is one of my favorites. Its sad and beautiful and, for some reason its exactly how i am feeling right now, and all that I want to be feeling right now too. WEIRD. anyhoo, I always want to cry/smile/ sigh when I hear it. Thats got to be a definition for a great song ( Read more... )