I don't know what's wrong with me.

She's bad for me... but for some reason, I think we need each other.  She's not some evil person, like everyone thinks she is.  She hurts, just like everyone else.  She cries, just like everyone else.

She's suffering.  Drowning, maybe.

I want to rescue her.  Somehow.

I just... I don't know what to do.

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I think I'm going to do it.

I don't want to do it, but I feel like... I have to?  It's bad for me--she's bad for me--but I can't keep ignoring her forever.  She was a big part of my life, and I can't really fill that gap she left behind, even if I was the one who tore it out in the first place.

Mai probably won't like hearing this.  I'm sorry! :(

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