Since I felt this bad. As worthless as I feel. I can't be ok with anything.  I just wanna leave everything. I can't work, I can't sleep, I can't stop crying, I can't stop missing my parents and I can't stop being upset with EVERYTHING people do. I see minimal amount of friends because I have a minimal amount of money. I have a minimal amount of ( Read more... )

It’s a frightening and overwhelming feeling knowing that you are one of billions of people on one of billions of planets. We have control of one body and life, taking responsibility for others in the process. Being the responsibility of other people. I think being on my periods throws me into a pit of Philosophy and panic attacks. I don’t want to ( Read more... )

Why do people always take to me at work. I let one guy put his bike in the linen room and already there's rumours that he fancies me because he asks where I am when I'm not on shift. This is ridiculous, it's probably just because he's on his own and I took the time to talk! Another guy, in with his son and daughter, 'sorry, I'm not flirting with ( Read more... )

Why because someone has the same skin colour as you does it mean that we all do favours for each other? My manager is Indian by blood but born and bred in Birmingham. Two indians come in and say 'Hey, where are you from, please do us a deal and knock off some pounds off of the price.' 'I'm from Birmingham. And no.' Love it ( Read more... )

A very long time has gone by since I last posted. 2 years almost. Since then I have acquired a new job as a receptionist at the Premier Inn in Heald Green, after leaving the G-Mex Premier Inn as bar staff in the Table Table attached. Oh and the year I had working at The Moon Under Water on the bar...memories. I've lived in a massive 6 bedroom house ( Read more... )

I have Coheed and Cambria's 'No World Tomorrow' Album!!!! I love it. Though no where had the DVD one in =( not impressed ( Read more... )

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Yes, I've done it.
Gone and got myself kicked out >.>
I'm stayin atfriends for a while and CCP are helping with a place to stay and stuff....hmph.

Seeing alot of old friends tonight though...sorted.

I've recently wished I had a car and could drive. The thought that I could just take the wheel, accelerate, and let go. Just to close my eyes and not care what I drive into, not care what happens to me when I hit what's ahead. I'm thinking literally, though metaphorically I'm already doing it. I'm disconnected from everything and couldn't give a ( Read more... )

I duno what's going on. Moving on Friday, been pushed forward again cos of house repairs. I need to see Louise cos my head is full and totally blagged. I think it's odd, that I don't wanna see anyone anymore. I just wanna be out and meet new people. For a few weeks now I've been moaning I've been on my own, but the thing is, if I was that desperate ( Read more... )