I feel like a light has finally come.  The past few days i havent felt sad whatsoever and have actaully been happy. no conditions. just-life is beautiful and im finally remembering that. Also, being able to talk about things rather than bottling everything up has really helped, so thank you for that ;) Ive had some time to spend time with people ( Read more... )

Ok so i asked for a tool ticket from my mom for my birthday but she like freaked out and said that she hates that i go to concerts bc they are the things that 'made me this way' (??) so i just bought my ticket to the Tool concert in San Antonio and at 1st i was having buyers remorse but i just looked at my bank account and i guess i had more money ( Read more... )

i give up. everyone else wins. so im sorry for ruining your life if i ever did. im sorry i cant be what you want me to be. im sorry im such a dissappointment. i give up, there is no more me, im just gunna live and be here, nothing else because nothing else matters. im sorry

My mom wanted to kick my ass last night. and tonight she told me to never talk to her again and that she can't stand me. Its 10 pm and im home on the 4th of July.

Cheers to "Independence"

wes doesnt talk to me anymore, he wont. only he texted me saying him and zack might come down soon to get zack's scale. just seeing that he had sent me a text message made me feel sick to my stomache. and then he asked me if he could buy kenny off of me bc his pipe broke and he got $100 stolen from him. i dont know what to do about this bc that ( Read more... )

...When I found out, I ran. I remember thinking; the rain looked like passengers jumping from a plane. I was running too fast, and even if I slowed down, I couldn't save them. They were falling too fast. I was running too fast. The things we think are perfect are just enjoying their last fall, and then nothing. It was the victims and the savior, ( Read more... )

so im about to go see nine inch nails. for free. with christian. for free. gunna get fuckked up. cant wait.
oh and i have a hangover =P

If i could act like this was my real life
And not some cage where ive been placed
Then i could tell you the truth like i used to
without being afraid of sounding fake

now all that anyones listening for are the mistakes

im really getting tired of the same shit everyday. class, work, sit at home. 
not sure how much more of this boredom and lameness i can ( Read more... )

i thought that maybe since i have been so unhappy in cypress and away from my friends that live in the woodlands from txstate, i would go to the woodlands on my day off to visit everyone, including (and pretty much mostly) wes. how stupid of me to think that it would be like how it used to be. it wasnt worth my time. i was at the mall for like 5 ( Read more... )

"it shouldnt be this hard", she tells me
So then why is it?

its been only a week since ive been home
and already i feel like i cant take this anymore
crying everyday for hours
i cant go on like this
i dont even know who i am anymore,
except alone.