Don't know what to think anymore. Or how to feel, what to feel. But im not ready to let go. Thats all i know.

I fucked up. This is all my fault. I have to get used to feeling alone again. I ruined everything and i cant take it back and all i can do is face the tragic consequences. How could i hurt someone with such a great heart? He was everything to me and i threw it away. I am a piece of shit. Worthless. 'I will only work to elevate you, just enough to ( Read more... )

take good care of it, he says.

words cant explain exactly how m feeling right now. all i know is that i am happy, happier than i have been in a long time. thanks to him.

i feel like i have nothing to worry about anymore. i have everything i need and could possibly want. this is such a good feeling.

Which is in San Marvelous which also makes me cooler than you.

just thought i should point that out

i love this place and i love life and all my friends and im so glad to be back and that i made it through the summer..

and its so hard to let you go...

I had sent wes a message on myspace asking if we could talk before we go back to school bc i didnt want it to be really bad going back. He IMed me and i showed him a convo that i had with jess pretty much explaining everything and i hoped he could understand where i was coming from ( Read more... )

Particularly Jess Williamson
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christian just came over. we talked about a lot of things. he always makes me happy.
but yeah one thing we talked about was how this summer is pretty much over. im moving back to school on saturday. and like i remember the very beginning of the summer and i started counting down. 80somthing days... and now its like 5 days. holy shit. and this ( Read more... )

It is officially my birthdayyy.

and no one has come to visit me and im bored all day and drowsy and in pain and idk i feel so...blah

Surgery is in the morning.

im scared/nervous/anxious/freaking out.

goodnight.