hey. so this is to eric. and a brief update on our life together.

regrets:

i regret saying i need space. i mean that and i don't. i do need space. i need to be able to go home and not feel like if i leave, i'm walking away from us completely. i feel like when i leave you, it's the end of our relationship. it's so out of sight out of mind with you. ( Read more... )

eric&i have been on quite the trip since i last wrote.

june 12th. shit. we hadn't even gone to niagra falls by then.

wow. okay, so we went to niagra falls. he drove there. just me and him. slept together and it was lovely. i love sleeping with him. then we went to cooperstown. he's an incredible boyfriend... oh RIGHT i asked him out june 31st. yes ( Read more... )

hah i forgot to mention something eric said about me. while we were on our way to cabela's, he told me about all the girls he'd ever had sex with. and one of them he said didn't count because he just couldn't screw her. she was too heavy. and he said she had a "pouch" and it was just a little one and it was just enought that he couldn't do it. i ( Read more... )

was june 6th... five days agoooo was saturday.

sunday, i picked eric up and we went to my dads house. i wrote all about it on myspace. things that i want to talk about in here, though, are us. the first amazing thing he said was as we were walking the dogs. he was talking about something and he said "and.. well.. i'm planning on falling in love ( Read more... )

he has said he loves me several times. and i have never ever said it back. ironically, i think it's me who truly loves the most in the relationship. i know we're not in a relationship, but it's close enough. just thinking about him turns my ring purple. i really love him so much.

mike said he was in love with me once. he told me he loved me every ( Read more... )

last night was perfect eric&kristen time. we had such a nice evening. it might have been the pain killers lol. i have no idea.

he picked me up with stan from the train station and as soon as he saw me he smiled so big. he kissed me as soon as i got in the car and it was adorable. i said hello to stan and they both seemed relieved to have me there ( Read more... )

hello. so it says that the last time i updated was two weeks ago.. which is sort of a shame because a lot has happened in those two weeks. i can't really even remember what.. but mhmm.

so unless eric has fallen into a coma, i'm pretty sure he is on his way to no longer talking to me. i'm not sure if it's temporary or whatever, but he has not ( Read more... )

so yeah.. he just randomly decides we're not talking...guhh?!?! WHAT?! but i have to act like it doesn't bother me. yanno? ugh i just wish i could have fixed the original problem sooner.. but whatever, now it's all a mess.  he doesn't text me.. unless i text him.. except for on my birthday.. he was the second person to wish me happy birthday....but ( Read more... )

heyyy... been a while AGAIN.

just writing to sayy hi and that i haven't forgotten you.. even though you may think i havee.

i just got back from the play at the school- how to succeed in business without really trying. IT WAS GREAT. loved it.

i'm also currently in a complete state of confusion as far as ericness goes. can't figure him. can't figure ( Read more... )

since i last wrote in this blog, i have become the girlfriend of eric. and soon to be exgirlfriend ( Read more... )