Sitting here, feeling sorry for myself... thinking about doing something for someone else to make myself feel better... selfish giving??? hehehehe Love My People!!

Rolling with the punches, today and everyday. It all catches up to you in the end, and I'm finding weakness in my entirety, drained and desperate. It's not me he says, this being sad, this being low. I am the happy one, the one to make others smile and I've lost that bit of me in the last two weeks, or years, I'm uncertain. My ramblings are that of ( Read more... )

It's one of those days, dramatic and who cares anyhow? Big mouths create big trouble and all I can do is nod and smile. Please, tell me about my life, like I don't already know if it's true? Whatever babe... and the big dogs, the honest and loyal ones are ready to stomp some ass. I love my people and am thankful to have the few but true friends ( Read more... )

Crazy and I could scream, or cry or murder the big mouths and insensitive pricks who pervade and perverse my existence. Play your fucking video games, and will you ever learn? No, I really don't think - in thinking I'm glad if you feel as if you've wasted two years of your life with me that I'm not wasting anymore of your precious video game ( Read more... )

Jack Johnson sings in his sweet voice for only my perky ears to hear and I'm simply sitting here.... scrubbing it up in my lil boys wife beater, nerdy glasses and yesterdays jeans... I'm in a mood, a chillin and what will be will be and so it goes kinda mood. Wes is back and I gave up the chance to work for homework and deep breaths, and maybe I ( Read more... )

So Long ( Read more... )

Here I am, on the verge of tears, I should have seen this coming. I could cry for you, for us, or the lack there of, yet my heart doesn't ache as it should. Lacking, in many ways, my life is in shambles. I could choose sacrificing myself for the sake of security, but now there's no turning back. Without my friends, without those who I hold dear, I ( Read more... )

My WesiePoo made it to Austin... Go him! I'm finding this whole man thingy to be absolutely entertaining. It's nice to feel liked again... Silly rabbit...

Awake, after a few hours of sleep and a long night of sadness. I suppose I should say somewhat awake, my brain isn't quite functioning properly. He's hiding again, still I suppose. I am just here.... The night of feeling empowered has led me to the day of feeling absolutely disheartened and drained. So be it, there is always tomorrow.

Bjork makes me want to scream, yet makes me feel sane, I suppose the only way to feel sane is in comparison with another. I need to stop that, the whole comparison thingy, it's really unnecessary and often makes me feel little, step-on-able. Either way, my brain is wonderful at criticizing, more often then not myself. In fact, myself is the only ( Read more... )