let go of your heart, let go of your head.... then I suppose, what's left?

I'll be fine, I'm gonna be alright, it's simply another day, another crazy night. Drinking at four because it's sunday and I can... and I'm a lush... and so are my friends... It's soon to be nap time, my lil peewie brain aches and although I want to I can't sleep in the bed. He told me he can't handle that it smells like me afterwords. Well... so ( Read more... )

thoughts and spinning emotions have led me to awake and aware at seven thirty after a measly couple hours of sleep... It's a lil later now, after returning to my trashed place, not home, not where the heart is, or where I sleep, simply a place, and a messy one at that. (take your records, take your freedom, take your memories I don't need em, take ( Read more... )

one year down, drowned and desperate, finding smiles between the fights and lies and heartbreak... bitter and bloodless you curse at me, unable to accept the truth, unable to open your eyes and truly see... I see my survival, my living life to the fullest is optional, I could just be and be great, or suffer, cry and fall in my typical self ( Read more... )

Accusations and fault finding, why can't you just accept that things happen, they happen for a reason and it doesn't have to be anyone's fault. Poker night is tonight, and the boys are coming to gamble their last dollars. I rather wish I could explain to you that perhaps it is jealousy, simply because he's been there since we've fallen apart and he ( Read more... )

I would love to run away, fight my fears, face a bright new day... would love to watch a frown be turned inside out and upside down... find the depths of entirety and be happy being me... I would love to watch your skin shimmer in the sun and shine, finding that for me you're the only one... I could find that my idealism is idealistic and is still ( Read more... )

I'm still uncertain of what I'm going to do... people seem to be in bad moods today and I'm not completely sure why. Ah well.... today is officially FATTY day... eat up kids!

Sweet! I might get another shift! anywhoo.... I'm supposed to figure out why I think I'm a bad person and get back to you... well... here goes... I'm selfish and self centered, moody and irrational, and can be cold and acrid... how's that for starters? Either way, it's nice to hear that you don't think I'm a bad person. I suppose everyone needs ( Read more... )

Today everything is changing in a moment... I found that I can smile because of those who love me, and want to cry just the same. In a moment I'll find that I'm loved, and in a moment, I'll find that I'm hated.. It's all in rolling with the punches and finding bliss in the quiet moments ( Read more... )

It seems that my mood can't remain happy no matter what. It's crazy, one second I'm super happy bouncy chica, the next I either want to cry or rip someone's head off. It's beautiful I assure you. My people are so far away, and I drempt of being forced to return to them, being out on my ass. I would love to fly away from here, but to there I'm not ( Read more... )