It's the end of November and I haven't posted here since August. Things have changed. Been going to therapy. Went off of my anxiety meds (like almost a month ago, I guess). Switched birth control meds ( Read more... )

I'm 113 today, one week after I was 113 ( Read more... )

Things I consumed today without purging them: 1.5-2 cups of ice cream (about 1 cup each of Mackinac Island fudge [320 cals] and vanilla [280 cals]). 1 plate of chips and melted cheese [280 cals + 160-240? cals] . 2 packets of fruit snacks [80x2=160 cals]. 1 cup pudding [120 cals ( Read more... )

So it's been two weeks ( Read more... )

Justin came home early. He came home an hour and a half after leaving for work. He came home to me in the shower, throwing up ( Read more... )

I fear the scale ( Read more... )

My anxiety had increased lately, so I went to the doctor to get my pills re-evaluated. He prescribed another pill on top of the one I'm taking, since it almost seems to be situational stress (i.e. new training at work, new house, new living arrangements, schoolwork, etc.). It helped me drop some weight ( Read more... )

So I haven't had a scale since we moved here, but I'm pretty sure I've lost. Haven't been eating much, really, that's all. Justin actually said he didn't bring his scale on purpose, because he knows I obsess about the numbers. Honestly I'm more obsessing about my body. I'm almost happy with how I look. The little bit of pudge at the bottom of my ( Read more... )

So we've been living here for almost a week now. Moved in all our stuff on Saturday ( Read more... )

I don't know what made me think it was a good idea to eat chili with sour cream and onion potato chips ( Read more... )