sooooo i really haven't updated in forever, and since i have no desire whatsoever to compose a 4 page econ paper (due monday) and/or 24 drawings (also due monday) i will reflect on my current personal experiences. so i have a newwwww boy. or should i say a new ben? yes, his name is ben. i guess you could say we're dating. we haven't talked about ( Read more... )

i have a crush on a new boy!! it's a tiny little thing that probably will go nowhere fast, but i haven't had a crush on someone since..... ugh. you know. it's fantastic. i finally feel liberated, after 10 months. yes, it's been that long friends. ridiculous ( Read more... )

i am sick.... AGAIN. i am NEVER not sick. the only thing i can think of to get completely healthy is take time off of swimming. there's no way i could just not do homework and not go to class. that would make no sense. bahh

i went to a sweet concert on saturday... beck, yeah yeah yeahs, the shins, muse, and a few others... anyhow i just think that everyone should listen to them because they're amazing ( Read more... )

it just isn't worth it anymore but here i go.... on top of finding out that stupid boy liked one of my best friends before me (about a week ago) i find out he likes her still. where does that put me? as a substitute? i should have seen it coming. it's super obvious ( Read more... )

wooo i officially survived our marathon of try-outs for swim team. i was really stressed because i thought i'd get cut, but it turns out hardly any of the girls got cut. most of the girl rookies just got intimidated and stopped coming. it was the boys team that was really competitive. i'm so mad at one of the decisions. one of my good friends didn' ( Read more... )

saturday was the annual pizza party for swim team. it made me so nostalgic, and everyone else was just like... yeah whatever another party. but NO. it means that it's been a whole year since we've been in santa cruz. it's been only a year and so much has happened and changed. maybe i just feel like a lot in my life has changed and everyone else ( Read more... )

the car's all packed. finally i'm leaving. well, on saturday morning. first i have lunch with holly, a dentist appointment, and the red hot chili peppers concert though! tomorrow should be a fun and busy last day at home. i've spent so much time anticipating my departure it makes me wonder if i really am ready to leave. i still feel like i didn't ( Read more... )

leaving in a week!!!!!!! woooo. it was good seeing everyone at aileen's last night. hopefully beach saturday. not full sentences.

it's getting to be about time to leave. i can just feel it. two of my good friends are already gone, swimming is over, another of my good friends, formerly my best friend, has already emotionally checked out. we just aren't close anymore. she doesn't take me seriously. i think she thinks we're too different. the fact is, we just went though things ( Read more... )