So remember back like a few months ago when i decided to be completely honest, well in a way I've stuck with that, but you see the problem is...not lying, but more omission. I realized that most of the time there are a lot of things that I keep to myself and in a way that is most defenitly a lie. If the right questions are asked I'll mostly give ( Read more... )

sometimes its better just to keep your thoughts to yourself... thats my advice to you... because some people are getting angry at what you say

I guess I just haven't updated in a while because really I don't really know how I feel about like anything in my life. Basically I've cut the world off in order to spend a little time by myself and figure things out, and all that i've realized is that I can't figure anything at all out ( Read more... )

if only something in my life would make sense for just like five minutes it would be phenomenal

It's not that I'm afraid of moving forward, its that I'm afraid of leaving stuff behind. I'm afraid of missing something on the way. Yes, I have learned to move on, but this time is it really time to move on. Thursday was my last away meet as a high school swimmer. I hate duel meets, especially away ones, but I'm not sure if I'm ready for it to ( Read more... )

So I realized yesterday that basically I'm grown up... and I feel like i missed it. I'm not a kid anymore I mean in 6 months I turn eighteen. I have a job, a car, and lots of responsibilites, but not in just that way did I grow up. I lost my innocence, and I would give almost anything to have that back. I was looking at old pictures yesterday ( ( Read more... )

That calm is always there... it just takes a little help to find.

I need that time where I am truly excited for something.  Where I am dashing between my bedroom and bathroom getting ready with the radio all of the way up.  That is my favorite time of all times.  The event that creates the excitement very rarely lives up to my expectations, but really its all about the anticipation and the singing at the top of ( Read more... )

I'm just floating along. I thought I had it figured out...I was wrong.  I know nothing...and I don't even know what to do about it.  I have one thing figured out... and really I don't care.  Maybe I just don't care anymore  if only that was true.

Remeber when we were little kids and we just said anything that was on our mind.  I mean anything and everything.  The kid was ugly you said so, boys had cooties you said so, you were mad you said so.  There was no limit to what a child we be blunt about.   Now why is it that as we grow up we lose that bluntness.  Wouldn't it just make life so much ( Read more... )