fucking love me my ass... that was the least sincere conversation ive ever had with him except for maybe our phone conversation tonight ( Read more... )

thank you for dinner today, because after lunch i really, really wanted to quit. again, i only had shitty customers and ver few of them to top it off and only made 6 dollars, which is the same as yesterday. i was so lucky with my third table tonight though, and i wouldve made good money tonight if i were able to get 4 tables instead of 3 ( Read more... )

oh my god!!!! i didnt even hit near 40 dollars after 10 hours. this is a record and if i ever break it im quitting. i cant fucking stand it sometimes, and fucking mexicans who dont tip... there are two types of mexicans right now in my opinion. the first type is the rodolfo type, whom i absolutely adore because they work so hard and are so ( Read more... )

id almost call toda emotional, but i cant ebcause i didnt cry. a couple days ago, JT got into a car crash and even though i knew he was fine, i started crying when i drove to benihanas in the morning and just sat in the car and cried forever. i was okay at work for the whole day though luckily, and then went out to rumors with everyone and didnt ( Read more... )

today i got the best customers and had good luck, so i cant complain at all. i even got off before 10pm, which is really, really early. other than that i feel exhausted. i tried plum wine and blush wine (white zin) today before i went home but it definitely took effect more than it shouldve. im just so tired- we were all gonig to go to topbox but ( Read more... )

i think lunani put it best... "stop acting like youre five." i dont know why i cant stop feeling this way and being so immature. even taka got really, really frustrated today with me. :( its a lot to handle right now...

I need a friend to talk to but since I dont have one, LJ is my only choice today. Work lately has been amazing. I abosltuely love it at Benihanas and today all day I was just waiting for 3 45pm to roll around so I could go to work. But somehow, today was different ( Read more... )

feeling numb again. went driving on 237 because i was so mad at my mom, got into a fight with her, now i just feel blank and im eating a second dinner at 11:30pm because i just dont know what else to do. the sudoku puzzle was so hard and i even gave up on that.. ive never given up before. im not even emailing kenan. i dont want to do anything but ( Read more... )

4th of july was shit. i cant wait until the 19th so my baby can come home and i can actually be with someone who is sane for once. im so tired.

Im excited because ( Read more... )