copying Rachel

hating life right now

overwhelmed

exhausted

disgusted

trapped

wondering for the fourty bajillionth time how the hell her life got like this

about to lose it

I finally got a new DVD player today, and I got a new movie to test it out. Catch and Release. I had wanted to see it when it came out but I don't have anyone to see chick flicks with. I was afraid it would be cheesy, but holy God. It was perfect. I bawled my eyes out. It's my new favorite. Garden State good. And it totally suited my mood ( Read more... )

I have been a total waste of space this week. I've worked three nights and I'm working Friday night, but the only remotely productive thing I've done besides that since Sunday was laundry. I've been wishing I were sick so I'd have an excuse for this. But for once I'm not. I'm just really fucking lazy ( Read more... )

- My actual birthday sucked royal ass. Mom and Ryan took me out to dinner. Waiters sang. But the table conversation made me feel like crap, mom was in a hurry to get the b-day overwith so she could do something with Duane, no b-day cake (yes, I can do without the calories, but come on - no wish?), exactly 3 of the people I invited showed up for the ( Read more... )

I'm feeling rather reflective/introspective on this inauspicious non-occasion. So here's the breakdown ( Read more... )

So Ryan had been texting me sappy sad Dashboard lyrics on an almost nightly basis for a couple of weeks. Then I didn't get any for awhile, which was good (or so I thought). Then the other night at work I got a text from him while at work. I saw it was lyrics and didn't even read it because I didn't want to get in that head space ( Read more... )

*In the midst of my panicky 6 a.m. freakout I somehow managed to make my internet work again. By doing the same damn thing I've tried 500 times over the last month. Won't bitch about it though I guess cause at least it's working now ( Read more... )

My internet is still broken. I'm at my mom's, supposedly using her technology to scrape together a presentation to give tomorrow morning. Only one more week til finals, which means I have two papers to write and like five exams to study for. My apartment is a mess. I am fucking exhausted. I'm working more nights now, but business is awful so I'm ( Read more... )

- My internet is still broken for no apparent reason ( Read more... )

I can't even think of an adjective to describe the last few days. All I know is it would have to be a negative one...and possibly synonymous with a complicated psychiatric ailment ( Read more... )