i texted, called and facebooked him over the course of the past few days.
all i want is to see him and tell him how i feel
i can't even get that
i hate this 

and as i finally headed back, i wanted to stay on until that stop and jump out and call him and be outside his house, in the pouring rain and tell him that he's been in my head since that one day and i haven't stopped thinking about him for a day and he makes me feel happy and calm.

and all those songs on the radio 

shin splints
and a severely fucked up ankle
and 10% of me was covered in poo today.  and not normal poo
cow poo

so let me lay out the past few weeks
2 weeks ago- get to theatre camp.  have DEMON SEED CHILDREN.  only thing keeping me together was miriam.
then the last 3 days of it
thursday night: i was supposed to go in and help with lights.  instead, i get there and realize "oh shit new rep's show is closing tonight"  so i helped to strike that.  yes ladies and ( Read more... )

I've been the girl with her skirt pulled high ( Read more... )

 because i'm extremely bored i'm going to do a full length rant about anything and everything that's been pissing me off, in the hopes that i'll feel better and by then end have something to do ( Read more... )

 nair doesn't work
and it smells fucking awful.
in other news i've found 2 colleges(roger williams and trinity)

i miss  my farm exponentially more than i thought i would.  have you ever found a place that you just feel so safe and warm, and happy?  despite everything that might be going on in the outside world, you don't care because you have your place, and in a way, your place has you?
in other news, in slightly random order:

fairly sure i picked up the ( Read more... )

  so my brain has shut off.  or maybe shut off for those 20 minutes.  because for the first time in a while i was doing, not thinking and it was nice and warm and boy.  and then i could hear the puttering in my brain and felt it cough and kick on and promptly sat up, yelling WHAT THE FUCK DID WE JUST DO?????  because this could be bad.  very, very ( Read more... )

i'm a senior ( Read more... )