my parents took the car. the cops took my bike. a stranger took my heart.

top two experiences:
1. biking (in general (but especially in NYC))
2. m83 concert

the first time i really knew what it was like to have an empty mind was when i tripped acid in new york city and biked around for hours on a friday night. i was in the zone. nothing on my mind but what i was doing: pedaling and reacting to the traffic, trying not to stop.. i felt best when i was doing something crazy and dangerous. we couldn't stop ( Read more... )

"steve? listen, its zach; damian needs his keyboard back. he says if he doesnt get it back soon he's gonna go crazy, you know what i mean? he's a jammer, man, and you're jamming him."

i can see the
marvelous grandeur
of modern man's
ugly standard,
feeble scrawlings
giving warning,
every day on
every morning.

all of us,
we tell a story
of dazzling blackness
and forgotten glory
of earth and space
and all existence
brought to mind
by ancient instance.

never much felt like writing poetry before just then

winning is a fallacy. time is going so fast but i am standing still.

sometimes, when i'm drunk, i feel like its the time when i can best realize and feel certain horrible realities, like freezing to death or getting shot at. i think its because normally, the mind tries at all costs to make sure you can't truly imagine such things ( Read more... )

a tree after an ice storm at the second house i ever lived in.

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its christmas. my friend, who is friends with molly, won't let me have molly. i am disappointed but hey, life goes on. micheal sennet! micheal sennet! i'm home again and sipping a whiskey-drink which i've concocted. the memories flood into my brain. whiskey and sodas were the primary drink of my father's side of the family. i remember 958 n. 5th ( Read more... )

watching some horrible, evil, demented and just completely wrong tv show from the 10th level of hell my teeth feel suddenly loose. my upper left molars. the ones that i grind on speed. i feel them loose. i'm tripping on mushrooms. i am sent into panic and everything becomes sinister. the visuals pick up but they are no longer fun and entertaining. ( Read more... )