some days i feel like there are two people inside of me. sometimes i'm rational, other times i'm an asshole. some times being alive feels alright and normal and other times its the most absurd thing and i want to jump off a bridge. its almost like all i ever do is try to get the two to stop switching and live with each other. i try to reconcile the ( Read more... )

ha, it was nice to finally be the 2 yrs older kids on acid and see how they wanted to be us. we told them how afraid we were to die.

people from where i am from used to be evil in my eyes and i knew i couldn't trust them. but now we stick together in a world where people are mostly not from where we are.

everyone is not against me. i am against everyone. i hate everyone because everyone makes up something that at the end of the day i can only see as nothing.

a lot of the time at the end of the day i can say
today has been a fucked up day

as humans in this space and time, perfection is our mortal enemy. we strive to be perfect, but we never are. but when the day comes that humans are perfect, they will know all of the past and all of the future as one endless moment. there will be nothing left to do because nothing will be left undone.

the last pictures my camera ever took. or the last pictures i ever took with my camera. they were great. i'd have given the camera thief my camera for just the memory stick ( Read more... )

i am afraid of being excited about getting to go to college again. because what if i don't like it and what about the people i might never see again. i will miss them but i will make other friends to fill their space.

many different things are headed in the right direction, but they need to connect together and then they will go

they say they know me. they are wrong. how could they know me when i don't even know myself? for years, the deception went on. i worried that i was completely see-through the whole time, so i worked on my endless web of lies, spinning it slowly and meticulously. but too often i spun it too fast. as time went on i, the spider, had forgotten my ( Read more... )