So...I leave for college in a week....yeah....I'm freaking out

So, I discovered in my argument with Aaron that he received his AP testing scores back and the class he is taking at this program, he already has the credit for. Aaron thought it would make me hate him, oddly enough, it startled me, but at the same time, I think it's part of the reason I'm not mad anymore about the program. He's there for nothing, ( Read more... )

So I have been getting countless advice from a few people that I need to truly talk with Aaron and tell him that he needs to get his priorities in check or I should hit the road. Anne says she is sick of seeing me hurt and Mel seems to think that Aaron needs to grow up. I agree with both of them-I hate feeling like this and I also do believe that ( Read more... )

I am screwing myself into a giant hole. Things seem to be going great and then I ask a question and I get annoyed and worried at the answer. So, Aaron is at college. He is meeting lots of new people and he has girl friends. That's not a problem; I don't mind that. What I do mind, is that I A)Had no idea, until about a week ago. B) Found out because ( Read more... )

Not caring is a weird feeling... scratch that... weird is the memory of the past 8 months fading away with one rev of an engine. I honestly don't understand it. He left 12 hours ago and my brain is sitting here trying to remember who he is. I'm sensing this isn't normal... I haven't heard from him since then... I haven't called, text, or anything ( Read more... )

Aaron leaves tomorrow. Is it wrong to be excited? I'll have time to hang out with my friends and not feel like I'm missing out on time with him. I won't have to worry about moral dilemmas or any other issues that come to my mind when he is around. It'll give me time to think; time to breathe; time to become my own person again. Travel back into who ( Read more... )

Well, any anger I felt towards this St. Thomas thing is disappearing; seemingly rapidly. Aaron's mom mentioned the other day that she was going to be leaving for El Paso for 3 weeks while Jaime is gone for 2 weeks; taking Jesse with her. Aaron will be at college during the week otherwise I'd estimate he would be going with them. This makes me happy ( Read more... )

I don't know how to make the frustration and pain go away. Anytime Aaron and I talk about St. Thomas I still feel my initial hate of him doing this program. He told me when he leaves and when he gets back... July 6th-August 16th. Well, maybe I can at least spend July 4th with him ( Read more... )

So, recently Aaron accidentally stayed at my house longer than he was supposed to. At 2 in the morning, his dad messaged him telling Aaron to call him. Aaron and I freaked out and Aaron got up to go home. He sends me a text later and tells me that his parents were extremely pissed off, due to the fact it was a Sunday, therefore a school night ( Read more... )

Life sucks something fierce ( Read more... )