Emotion bubbles up through the air,
arising in thick waves of tension between two attached individuals.
You choke on this, try to force it down. Resulting in a sputter of inner tug-a-wars.
You're ashamed - I'm apologetic.
You can't look at me- I can't help staring at you. 
I try to comfort you-but you won't have any of it.
I try to give you what you ( Read more... )

Wouldn't it be nice if these hollywood movies actually held just a slight linger of truth. I mean as a woman I've sat for years watching these wonderous romances on television that always end happily for the new found couple. Unfortunately, truth being- shit just an't like hollywood baby. Guys don't call ya back, they don't show up at your home/ ( Read more... )

 I have learned a few valuable things that I was completely oblivious to until recent years.In order to help others who are/were in my little hole of wonder and having similar or same  issue/s I will thoughly explain these afflictions with the best of my knowledge and detail. So let us begin!

First off POPSICLES...Were invented by the Romans. They ( Read more... )

I'll sit beside you smile nicely , and even though you may rub against me- I'm a million miles away.I'll give you what you want , only because I'm looking through you for something more.Offer me something new , something I haven't seen... I beg of you.

From time to time we get punched in the face emotionally by those we entrust with our love. I found that the best thing to do while you're picking up the pieces of your personal backbone of self-esteem , which has been torn out by who ever this individual may be , is to just say fuck it. This person is not worth your time. Yes, they hurt you . Yes ( Read more... )

For the longest time I was so confused by the sayin "if you love someone set them free". Unfortunately it took me this long to truely realize the meaning of that. So here it goes , Im setting someone free , because they're not on my path anymore. This sucks.

Welcome to the year 2009 , your mission - go find yourself. I realized as of recently for the last 2 years I've been on a fuckin ridiculous downward spiral. I've seen some fucked up shit , I've had some mircles happen , I've had some disasters happen and of course some love came and some love left. It's about time I stand the fuck up and say , I ( Read more... )

The living lessons Of Sami's day. Today I learned that my boyfriend is a completely lost chunk of being swimming in a bottle of booze. I also learned that these special mental fuckin doctors have no fuckin idea whats wrong with me. YAY for being hooked up to brain activity electrodes....Fuck my life...seriously....

Yes so... Hello ( Read more... )

I feel utterly tired of life at the moment. I don't want to do anything. I don't want to party , or go anywhere or do anything. I just feel completely drained by everything. I hate to say it but when i tend to social events and people it literly drains my soul. I dont like people. I like my bed , and books , and thats about it.