A day I won't forget screaming at my son the entire day. Losing my sh*t.

Being mother now brings me to reflect what kind of daughter I was and what kind of mother I want to be.

Screaming and yelling was never part of a way to get things done in my books. But today with so many things happen together I just lost it.

Now that he is asleep, I reflected ( Read more... )

So M's right brain course is gonna end this year. Hubbs asked what other course will i want to send M to after this which we both agree to send him for swimming classes. Hubbs also said that his colleague tried sending his son to all sorts of class and he ended up liking fencing at age 12.

Then he asked back in my childhood days what kind of course ( Read more... )

i should be weird to post up on your facebook out of the blues or even text my cousin about this when we dont usually talk. i hope this is my closure for my 2nd regret in my life till date.

im sorry i could be there to see you the last time. i hated the fact that it happened when i was pregnant and everyone stopped me from going cus it was bad ( Read more... )

What if.. I didnt reply to my husband hello back then? Im sure i will be that pessimistic girl who doesnt believe in happiness and that more people in my life will cause more issues and dramas. I would perhaps be dating still. Of cus everyone has flaws. Im glad my husband accepted my flaws and i accepted his. But what if.. Tables turned. Actually, ( Read more... )

30 Dec 2019 A night of cries and worry, i shouted in frustration and it startled my son.. Im sorry. But there is mess and noises coming out from the living room and kitchen. I just couldnt take it, baby is crying non stop even i tried all my ways. I cant comfort him. Things needed to buy and yet forgetting, catching for time and yet cant pump, ( Read more... )

Sigh.. Life is tougher now with COVID-19. Monday, 6 April 2020, my company is sending everyone home to work. We are one of the last few companies to do so. im pretty lucky to be under the essential industry cus we are supplying food and that we still can operate which also means i still have a job. SG now is going on "circuit breaker" which is like ( Read more... )

5 days away before our son turn 6 months old and its also your 1st year wedding anniversary.

Day by day, you grew up. From smiling to laughing, from patting you to sleep in our arms every night to you sleeping by yourself now. Every footstep now make me miss much you grew. I sure wish time will slow down a little. I'll hold you as much as i could ( Read more... )

what should you feel when u hear a comment that your son should look like your husband and not like you?

it gets worst when the person commenting is your in law.

im upset and disappointed to be part of the family. i dont feel like one of them.. at all.

its really not easy being a working mother.. at times i wished that hubs could be more sensitive to my emotions and not be that bossy. its stressful from work, from "you need to be that mother" he wants me to be, from eating/resting enough for the supply of breastmilk, from being away from home and my dog, from earning more, from getting enough ( Read more... )

and so my breast milk supply is back.. but my mood hasn't been back..

no doubt being mother changed me to be a more patient, more caring, more giving and more thoughtful to others. but i do feel emotionally weaken, maybe because of the lack of sleep and the stress from work.

i dont know how im getting the support i need. i miss my tail wagging boy ( Read more... )