I wish to be devoid of all emotions and feelings.

For everything hurts badly.

I want to

-exclude myself from others,off my phone and just disappear
-quit my job
-cry bucket
-cry more
-hate everyone
-just lie on my bed and do nothing but stare at the ceiling...and cry

I am hating everything

Despair

Everyday I prayed that your love for me will be more than my love for you...

For I know that my love is incomparable.

But maybe God granted my wish by reducing my love for you instead

Everything sucks.

Work sucks.

Being targeted because you are a repeater? sucks.

The new 1st year sucks.

Missing someone sucks.

I hate myself for being such a baby,but I am becoming one.

Sleep off my worries? What am I kidding? I get nightmares. Suddenly awoken by the non-existence notification that will never come.

Can I sleep the whole day?

Sleep away all the worries?

All the sadness?

Kokoro.

Nazo.

Himitsu.

Ai.

Suki to ka.

Kirai to ka.

Kotae ha...

Doko?

.....................

Heart.

Mystery.

Secret.

Love.

Is it like?

Is it hate?

The answer.....

Where?

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Reposting because I am super bored.

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Writing is one of my way to channel my thoughts and stress. For I am not good with verbal expression and have very,very few friends whom I can consult to.

Hence you will realize that most of my posts lately will be updated when I am in severe distress.

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