i like to think that when i'm not posting it means i'm happy. but then it turn it makes me equate happiness with non-thinking, or stupid thinking if anything. its always been a dilemma, but love's involved now and that changes everything.

i suck pretty badly. cant get motivated. sleep sleep sleep. i was doing so well for 3 weeks then its coming crashing down. its a little early but i hope im pmsing. i need to lay off weed. do school work. study. go to class. get organized. i am organized and i still feel like im missing something. i guess not thinking about it is my best option. i ( Read more... )

spontaneity is lost. not forever i dont think. ive got work to do.

just finished reading "Skinny Bitch." There's so much food propaganda going around but they mentioned something about chemicals in our foods, makeup, soaps, etc. I definitely think I want to try and eat as much organic as possible. Id also like to maybe cut out meat and dairy, though I think I will keep eating fish and eggs. They had a lot of ( Read more... )

Gender based dynamics in the school systems. Co-Ed, Single Gender,whole school, specific classes, male teachers to males/ to females, female teachers to males/to females, coed teachers in a coed classroom, coed teachers (2 to class) in high risk youth classrooms ( Read more... )

Goals ( Read more... )

found this ( Read more... )

drugs. are everywhere. it disgusts me. ah, the other side of abuse. kind of refreshing. and i dont waste as much money. especially ecstasy, its everywhere. EVERYWHERE. everyone is constantly on it. and everyone has lost their life. but i feel better, so maybe they will too. its just not a guarantee, and not everyone knows it yet or wants it enough ( Read more... )

I will not let you, cough cough MEN, rule the way I think. I wanted to have sex with you, your yummy and delicious and beautiful. But now that I have slept with you, that by no means I want to do it again. And to insinuate we will, well that's really not your decision. I feel I boldly and stupidly, made the choice to fuck you. Doing it once does ( Read more... )

I am: stupid ( Read more... )