So last night I went got into bed, rubbed on some foot lotion and put on soft aloe socks that I got for Christmas and thought to myself, if it weren't for my stupid uterus, all would be right with the world ( Read more... )

Ah, Turkey Day. A day of Thanksgiving, if you will. A time to be with family and celebrate what life has given you. So, why all the drama? It seems to me that this particular Thanksgiving is filled with drama. This year with have selfishness, manipulation, alienation and inconsideration. And I'm upset that because of these things, 3 family ( Read more... )

No, Jeni is not pregnant ( Read more... )

A lot of things going on. The house hunt is officially on! Rob and I are going to try to get pre-approved for a loan and get a realtor to work with us in the next couple weeks. We have a couple houses we like and would like to tour them, so we're both nervous and excited. I think Rob is just as nervous as I am, which is reassuring I think ( Read more... )

I had a dream last night ( Read more... )

A fortnight of a woeful doe
Instinct discovers strangeness
A mild scent in the breeze
Fear takes hold and enslaves
Restless but unable to move

There is nothing.
There is nothing.

Still afraid
Waiting for the cause
It doesn’t come
There is nothing

Afraid
Afraid
So very afraid

The heart stops.

Yes, desert ( Read more... )

It's been a roller coaster ride for the last two months or so. Rob brought up living together, so we've been kind of planning that. And while doing so, there have been subtle talking of marriage and children. In fact, a couple of my friends at work think, from what I've told them, that a proposal will probably come soon. I can't deny that I was ( Read more... )

Today Ellan and I went to get pedicures. This was my first one and her intention is to get me hooked. I liked it a lot and I didn't know I could actually like the look of my feet. I keep looking at them all nice and shiny and pretty.... After the pedicure, we went walking around the mall. She was interested in what kind of jewelry I liked and ( Read more... )

My tolerance of people grows less and less as I get older. I have come to the conclusion that I generally don't like people. I'm not saying this as a social commentary, but of my own personal feelings. There are few people that I call friends. And some friends, I could really do without. I have always been a bit of a hermit, but I permitted ( Read more... )