i apologize to all the wonderful mothers out there, but this day mite as well not exist to me. its really unfair that all these kids that r terrible to their parents get to celebrate this day and i cant. so im gonna say rite now, u better do sumthing incredible for ur mother. i mean truely incredible. no shitty card, or "im sry mom but i didnt have ( Read more... )

nothing new really. im getting more hours at work which is good. that means more money. Amber is home from Florida so thats awesome. its been really quiet n kinda boring without her. she brought me home presents n that was nice. Justinas b-day was awesome. we polka danced, n we were drunk, and yeah, i felt like poo the next day ( Read more... )

do i stutter? do i make a sound when i move my lips? cuz last time i checked u said u'd be there. these last couple days have been tearing me down and i cant take it ne more. i wanna scream, i wanna cry, i wanna throw myself off a cliff just to see how long it would take to hit the ground. who thinks that way? who will seriously say they have ( Read more... )

so im pissed. really really pissed.

im wearing tie-dye n its kool.

ppl r dumb.

thats basically it...well, for now neways.

yeah.

"your what keeps me believing the worlds not gone dead"

...so y does everyday hurt?

so i got bored, and while chilling with sum sic ppl, ended up finding sum pretty sweet pick up lines ( Read more... )

so this past weekend has been pretty damn good. friday i had my birthday party with justina and sum pretty sic ppl showed up to show sum love, not to mention i got sum good gifts. i didnt expect ne one to get me nething, but alas, i went home with 7 shirts, a perfume n lotion set, and (thanx to justina) the greatest alarm clock i have ever seen... ( Read more... )

so today is the last day that we have the apartment i guess. it sux pretty bad. and yesterday i took moms stuff to the basement ( Read more... )

so everythings madd crazy. we have to be out of the apartment by feb. 1st. - not gunna happen ( Read more... )

im feeling really lost and empty. nothing has seemed or felt right since mom died. there are times when i pray to god that i wont wake up in the morning becuz i kno life will never be the same. i kno that when i wake mom wont be there to give me a hug and ask me how my nite was and have coffee with me. i cant handle it. i cant handle everything. im ( Read more... )