seriously, my friends don't seem to understand anything.
nor do i feel as if i have a best friend now.
JOY!

i really can't believe myself, i really can't.
every time i try and think that i'm happy.. i realize i'm not.
i keep on doing this to myself.
i keep on over thinking every single thing.
and i keep on feeling so tremendously hurt.

i really wish drew was online right now.
i have something to talk to her about.
only she would understand anything.
:(

i'm a red head.

PLANS
Tuesday(Today): Dying/Cutting hair.
Wednesday: Orthodontist, Looking @ Cellphones, Paycheck, Hangouts with Sarah, Buying boots & a coat.
Thursday: Chocolate & Cigarette date with Matt. Haha.
Friday: Toga Party. (Basic B-ville kids & drew hangouts)
Saturday: Jess Allen, And Who knows/

OUR HOUSE SOLD
&DANCES DANCES DANCES.

i'm lying to myself.
:(

"it hurts to much to cry, failed before so now why bother"

fuck.
i have been lying to myself for awhile now.
why did i have to figure this out now.

i've had the same dream 2 days in a row now.. i want it to go away.

I'm never going to take the relationship I have with my mom for granted ( Read more... )

brandon wallace, you're too crazy.
i loved saturday when we hid out and had little heart to hearts. you and the crazy things that come out of your mouth
<3

you know what, this is bullshit.
i'm trying to be your friend, you were my bestfriend.
sure we can throw away what we called a relationship, but i still want to be your friend.