i really, really, do not want to move to oshawa anymore.
i'm finally realizing who will stand by me through everything.
who will never ditch me, or leave me, and will be the bestfriends they can be.
i don't want to leave them.
even if it is only 2 towns away.
fuck, i don't care if i keep ranting about shit.
that's what my lj is for.

whether you would like to admit it or not, everyone & everything is changing.
i don't know what to think anymore.
i feel like i don't have as many real friends as i'd like to think i do.
people are such shit talkers, and claim they are your friends, then don't ever make plans with you.
this summer will be shit.
i know it will.

never having unprotected sex again

i don't know what's going on.
mike took me off of his myspace.
and i can barely even breathe.

i have some things to say, that i really need to get off of my chest.
i haven't been the best girlfriend.
i let so much stuff get in the way of me treating mike the way i should have.
i know in my heart that i need to change.
i need to see him so i can show him ( Read more... )

he assured me that we're not breaking up.
and that he loves me.
but i'm still upset.
i feel like everythings my fault.
he says it isn't.
he's not coming home tonight.
he's coming home tomorrow :(

i was trying to write a new 20 people blog, but all i could think of was what i have to say to mike:

I screwed up. I should have been better to you. I have a feeling in my stomach that somehing bad is going to happen, and it's tearing me up inside. I need you to know I'd do anything in the entire world for you...anything. I'm falling apart. You ( Read more... )

SCARLETTS COMING DOWN. i'm excited.<3
she said she'd come down after pride, and i might go to pride as well.
and and..i miss her.

ANYONE IN MY AREA ON HERE.
If you have pants you don't wear.. please donate them to me.
I have 2 pairs of pants, seriously.
And the rest I have to give away lol.

I friggen love hangouts with Brandon aka Ed. He's the sweetest bestfriend, and the fattest.


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