Words fail to flow off my fingertips the way in which I want them to. It eludes me to think of a life spent in that manner. But, I have to swallow the sadness and let it ride. Nothing, I repeat, nothing is worth the price I'd be forced to pay in order to execute such grandeur schemes. Regardless, It matters not as the end draws nigh. Life in ( Read more... )

That's where my mind keeps going today. With her, curled up on the couch...watching Eureka.
Maybe a few children running out of the back room...
"Daddy, daddy...come play with us!" is what they'd yell as my face illuminates. Kissing her gently on the forehead and moving her aside...I go and play with my kids. In my home. With my love.

But such ( Read more... )

Anger ( Read more... )

I remember the days when Tarien Laide told me she loved me ( Read more... )

Hmm...
What to say on this glorious day...
I puked all day...
I shit all day...
I missed 2 classes...
I had perfect attendance before today...
God Is Dead...
And No one cares...
When I get to hell...
I'll see you there...
Go Trent Reznor...
Yay...

Finally removed from the home life...
Not sure about this place yet, but i'm working on it...
Roommate is cool if he decides not to declare private room...
I do love the campus, hate living on parent's money though...
We'll see how all this pans out, hopefully for the best...

I've given up on being patient. From now on, if you piss me off...i'll just hunt you down and fucking kill you. I think that will be sufficent. I'm not longer dealing with ignorant "Saci" like figures (human cockroaches). I'll just kill them. So if you're like him, you're dead...get your will together, give me time to light a blunt and i'm going to ( Read more... )

The will to continue is a hard mind set to get yourself into. So many days I feel like just giving up. My memory is getting worse...and Bri gets mad at me because she thinks it's on purpose. I don't know what's wrong with me, I really don't, but it's apparantly something irreversible. I love her to no end and all I want is to put an endless smile ( Read more... )

Why I continue to let the past continue to haunt me in beyond me. That worthless pile of filth that invaded my life for that short time is gone, but yet I continue to let it bother me. Why, I haven't a clue...insecurity is all that I can conjure up. Guess I'll just have to deal with it in my own time.