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Anxious/scared
Hoping I get to move to Audits.
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"What business are you in, Salt?" "…Nuts"
I feel like I'm slowly losing my grip on everything. I want to abandon my job, I want to pack us all up and move far, far away. G keeps talking about a little brother or sister and K said something about a surrogate… I have mixed feelings about this. First, G is 7… 7, the exact age my sister and I are apart from each other and we weren't that close ( Read more... ) -
Obsess much
So I had dreams about playing Warcraft for about two weeks before I signed back up. It had been a year since I played before that. Now I keep having dreams about smoking again. I loved smoking. It was easy to give up but I literally loved it. Everything about it. The taste, the motions, the dancing smoke, the way it smelled in my hands, all of it. ( Read more... ) -
Motivation
I think I want to join another gym. I haven't worked out since D and I broke up. I need something constructive to do. I just wish they weren't so expensive. It's exhausting hiding from my reflection all the time.
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Aspirations
I want to be good at something. I want to be really good at something. I want to be so good at something that people wish they had half my talent at it. I have no natural talent.
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Long time
Haven't posted since January. It's been a long time but nothing else is really new. Missing having friends lately. K went out with a friend from work yesterday while I was at work. They just ran some errands and went to Ikea but it still was kind of sad for me. I miss Zelda. I miss Dragyn. I miss always having someone to see. I know people at work ( Read more... ) -
Someone needs a hobby
Maybe if I had less free time, I wouldn't be in my head so much.
So would I work more at a job I can barely stand? I'm teetering on the edge of walking out. I don't know what I want to do. I want to go back to school but I can't afford to be unemployed, it's not fair to K.
I feel stuck again.
They want me to get into the leadership roles at work ( ( Read more... ) -
Always
I am going to marry her. She's my best friend. I will love her always and no other. Can't wait to make her my wife.
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Zzzzzzz
I like that I can hear her breathing.
Her rhythm is comforting.
I like that I can feel her laying next to me, even when we aren't touching.
I like that she's my heater when I'm cold.
I'm glad I don't have to sleep without her anymore.
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Annual
I called in last Saturday and spent the day with K. She got another tattoo, on her shoulder this time, and something was telling me not to go to work. I'm not a fan of calling in, I just couldn't shake the feeling that I shouldn't go. So I didn't. I had Sunday and Monday off and K's uncle got us a hotel room in SLC. K's mom was watching the boys ( Read more... )