I havent written anything in live journal for awhile. I have nothing to say. I guess I just wanted to write something to my intimate livejournal crew. Myspace has sucked me in and I cant get out. It is refreshing to know I can always come 'where everybody knows my name'. Im so sorry for the neglect. Will you ever forgive me ( Read more... )

I admit it! (im saying this with my head down) I'm addicted to myspace. Its been forever since my sister-in-law tried convincing me to get a space. I kept declining because I wanted to "stay anonymous". One day she convinced me through the persuasion of people who might be looking for me. I felt a tingle. What if someone was looking for me? What if ( Read more... )

Im not too sure why I did what I did last night. It was weird because I was doing homework at Boca Center Starbucks when in walked Stephen. Stephen was a regular of mine when I worked at the Starbucks on 42nd and Park in Manhattan. Surprised, he sat down and we spoke for a very long time. Eventually, Stacey joined us when she got off work and our ( Read more... )

So, my father had another run in with Meth last weekend. This time he has landed himself in the hospital with liver failure, a kidney stone, withdrawals, and negative repercussions from his AIDS virus. The one thing I dont understand is how a person who is already sick would keep doing this to themselves. Im at wits end with this issue. I cant keep ( Read more... )

I wasnt going to see Brokeback Moutain because I didnt want to be a cliche. The irony of the whole thing was that it took 2 straight girls and lesbian to get me to see it. It was late- like 10:30pm and I really had to be to sleep because I had to work at 4am yesterday. I decided to go anyway because EVERYONE wanted to see it and we wouldnt have if ( Read more... )

Like every year, God graces us (those who have made it this long) yet another year to prove our points and learn our lessons. Its almost miraculous but Ive become so human I dont appreciate as much as I should. Was it the Mayans when they designed their calendar? Did we copy the idea from the Chinese or did they copy us? or Was it a day that God ( Read more... )

The tides are changing. Ive never been so comfortable getting older. I mean, I'll be 26 in 6 days. It scared me at first because 26 is 4 years from 30 and thats pretty weird. I'm almost 30! Weird. See ( Read more... )

My life is like WHOA!!!!!!!! It seems I have fallen into one of those warpy things that makes life go at mach speed. I mean, just yesterday it was November 1st and now its December 2nd? WTF!!!!!! I cant seem to catch up on thoughts although any work related situations have been taken care of. Yet work is only 50% of what makes me and I think its ( Read more... )

HAVE A HAPPY AND SAFE THANKSGIVING TO ALL!!!!! I know I am truly thankful for anyone who reads this ( Read more... )

Why does God tempt me with ridiculously gorgeous 16 year old guys? Why doesnt anyone my age ever ask me out?

AND EVEN WORSE...

Why do I think it's hot when a 16 year old has that courage when i didnt at their age?

FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK! Lord give me strength...for now