so I was all excited about tonight.

and then someone who I thought was a really really close friend did something that really hurt me. and I don't think theres a point to fixing it. I wanted too so bad.

but theres no room for me. I can't settle from going to best friends. To "a girl she knows"

you see. sorry nicole. but maybe you didnt clearly get ( Read more... )

so this effin sucks.

I feel emo so beware of this entry.

I'm realizing that once I get close with people- I lose them right away.

problemas.:::::

--Emiko. - I hardly see her or talk to her and we aren't hardly close at all. It's not her fault its mine prolli but I feel like. she's gone. maybe I sound dumb?

--Nicole. - She went to Colorado and we ( Read more... )

ugh. i am so pissed off. i just did this entry to fix it because i posted it 3 times lol.  the font kept getting bigger than what i wanted so.

sorry renee =/ i accidentally deleted your comment. this is like the 2nd time i've done this. so sorry. lemme try again

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so. today was so much fun!

went to britts and hung out there.

went bowlinggg ( Read more... )

soo today was kinda boring. oh well.

tonight was funn. alex & diane stopped by.

called nicole and said 'sorry' but she didn't answer.

tomorrow is bowling with moey & britt. yay

might call matthew to come with me. iunno?

so today I realized how I lost so many of my friends.

and how I realized how lately they've been hurting me so bad

I need new ones ( Read more... )

pssssst..

tonight he held my hand ( &then he held me )

anddddd. happy birthday to me ;)

so i got soaked at the park & i went home & changed.

i wore the shirt that i haven't worn since... yeah...

he totally noticed. he looked at it and then did. this smile -shakes head-

i was like. thank god.

and later i was teased about it. so it wasnt far from his mind.

.....::::if i could only go back in time::::.....

oh how cute. see the icon felisha found for me about nathan.

sigh.

-no comment-

wow. i have like no friends. oh well. i wouldn't be friends with me either.

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why don't you show me a little bit of spine you've been saving for his mattress?

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oh look at her & her b R o K e N heart
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happy
birthday
kristin
=p

<3 you.

i just don't want him to know i care so much. actually. i don't want to care at all.

so today was so awesome. flyers game with nicole.

sad = i screwed up my shoulder again. back to the doctors..  tis very painful

sorry paul. try again shall we?

tomorrow will be a blast with everyone. at least thats what i'm hoping for.

i came to a sad conclusion ( Read more... )