well i made my decision. to be honest i didnt really dwell and think about it...it just happened in the matter of 5 secs. i went back with david. I KNOW!!!! everyone thinks im an idiot for doing so but i couldnt help it...i was desperate for affection and love that david was willing to give. i havent told joe and i dont know how to tell him. even ( Read more... )

i knew that it was going to eventually happen, joe telling me how he TRULY felt. it felt kind of surreal like it wasnt happeneing.....but it did and WOW am i more confused then ever ( Read more... )

things are weird between me and david. well they arent weird...but im just not used to it. its like we are together but we arent. like we mess around and shit like that but when he lieaves...hes gone. no phone call no nothing and then he's all like "you better hurry up and make a decision becuase you wouldnt want to let me slip away" and all that ( Read more... )

well its all over now...and all i have to look forward to is graduation. im kinda glad because im getting the hell outta killian, but at the same time im sad because ITS ALL OVER. the majority of the people that i know are all going to out of state colleges and the ones that are staying here in miami i probably wont ever see again until the reunion ( Read more... )

been ooking bak and reading the old stuff that i have written and WOW....all i write about it how much i hate david. no wonder my mom s tired of hearing our shit. LOL. well no more cuz things have changed in the world od david and alexa.....IT;S ABOUT FUKING TIME ( Read more... )

how the hell do u do this?!?!?!

the fact that i didnt break up with him after all the shit that happened this past week has GOT to mean something. my mom says thaty im in love and maybe i am. i can see myelf with him in the future for a long time and now i miss him more then ever. after we got over everything and moved on i felt closer to him, like every fight that we have just ( Read more... )

wut that fuk is going on? we were doing so well then all of a sudden it all went to shit. he wasnt being the bf that i needed hm to be and i just exploded on him and now he doesnt want me anymore ( Read more... )

the shit just cant seem to stop can it ( Read more... )

i thought that i could balance my friendships and a relationship at the same time but it turns out that it's impossible. you have to sacrifice one of the two. i decided that the friends that i have now aren't that important to me that i would need to lose david over.....here's what happened ( Read more... )