I just got approved for a $12,000 signature student loan. All on my own. No cosigner. Nobody else I need to depend on. I did it all by myself, and now I'm 110% going back to Merrimack on January 15, 2007 ( Read more... )

does there ever come a time where we are allowed to stop learning lessons all the time, and we're just left to be a person. A person who needs and wants and is tempted and not made to feel as though those indiscretions have rendered them as a worhtless failure? I know noone who has been scrutinized or analyzed more than I by those who are closest ( Read more... )

Bored googling fun--> you go to google, type in "(your name) looks like" and look at the results. Some of them are kinda funny, and Im having a crappy day so i figured id waste some time and do it for all of us. I personally like Bobby's the best, tho Linds runs a close second.

Patty looks like:
-she could be anyone's next door neighbor.
-the female ( Read more... )

these past 3 or 4 days have turned everything around for me. for now.

im so happy with things. tam surprised me on friday and i got to see her and her fam and it made me so very happy and rejuvenated my spirits. then i hung out with tj for the past two nights and he actually came out with us instead of hanging around in his cave all night, and it ( Read more... )

I was sitting outside the Weathervane on the dirty loading dock where everyone smokes cigarettes when they get a chance to have a break. and i was sitting in a half broken chair, staring at the smelly, absolutely wretched dumpster about two and half feet in front of me. There was nothing beautiful or poetic about the situation ( Read more... )

ive worked 32 hours in 3 days and gone to 4 hours of class. I'm scheduled for 62 hours next week. I have a huge bruise on my arm and a big bump on my knee bc i fell down at work. My face is breaking out, my hair is always up, I always smell...like work. I'm dragging myself through this nonrelationship with TJ and its totally not even worth it ( Read more... )

you dont need me
and I don't need you
and without realizing it
we've come to need the needlessness.

I haven't written in almost a month which is weird. It always makes me a little nervous when I dont write for that long, because it's usually a sign that I'm not addressing the shit that's happening in my mind. When I need to vent, I write. And considering the place I'm in right now in my life, you'd think I'd have a desperate need to vent.

But I ( Read more... )

There is a difference between wanting what you can't have, and knowing that you are everything that someone else could want. It's a feeling like just when fate was supposed to jump in, it tripped and fell and when it got back up, it was already facing another way ( Read more... )

"Love is a serious mental disease."
-Plato