nothin huge goin on. . .working, dating, playing, living. . . getting ready to move up to seattle. basically, i'm happy. things are pretty good. dating a couple of different girls right now, neither being a serious prospect for me. they know about eachother and we've all become friends - they're both really cool. work is work. i am well-payed ( Read more... )

hmm. . .feel like i should have something to say, but i can't find the words to adequately express it. took some "me time" after work tonite. shut off the phone, went to a bar where nobody knows me and just shot pool for a couple of hours. i needed it badly. and i worked through some of my issues. i've decided to reclaim my body, as it were. ( Read more... )

OK, so can we just rip my heart right out of my chest please?

oy, what a day! not a bad day, just insanely busy. and i finished it off by talking to lindsay for an hour. it was a good conversation, i guess. i'm just a bit confused about her right now - confused about us. well, actually, confused about whether or not there even is an "us" at the moment. and it feels a little soon, you know? i really ( Read more... )

so, the roomies are out of town for the day. . .got the place to myself. halla-fucking-lujah! gonna sit back, watch movies, play video games, probably eat til i wanna puke, and just enjoy my day off. hope everyone has a good day - i know i will. peace.

hmmm. . .working today, til 9-ish. love my job. . .didn't realize how much i missed it before, but now that i'm back i remember why i got into this line of work in the first place. people. i love people - well, most of them. and the money doesn't suck either! what else? cell phone is busted, so i kinda feel like my life-line has been cut off ( Read more... )

OK, so not much has changed between last nite and right now except that my face is twice as swollen and it hurts twice as bad. i'm having a hard time believing that i got punched over a girl. i've never been hit like that before. still in shock i guess. i had to go into work this morning for meeting. . . you should've seen my boss's face. i ( Read more... )

ok, y'all ready for this one?? i'm at the bar with some friends, and i'm talking to this girl that i'm kinda interested in. . . she happens to be the X-GIRLFRIEND of another woman i know. but that's the important thing isn't it? EXGIRLFRIEND?????? anyway, we're outside the club later on, and this girl comes up and cold-cocks me out of nowhere, ( Read more... )

OK, so i'm reading back thru my journal and realizing how depressing and conflicted my life has been lately. this is not me, AND IT PISSES ME OFF! i'm actually a very happy, settled person and it bugs me that i've been so bummed out lately. so here is where it ends. no more feeling sorry for myself. no more giving up. no more accepting life ( Read more... )

we buried chris payne today. just got back from the funeral actually. i didn't know him as well as some people - most people really - but his big heart and caring nature shone as brightly to me as any single person i've ever had the priviledge of calling my friend. i'm sorry i didn't have the opportunity to get to know him better, but knowing ( Read more... )