i want to feel alive.
i don't know what is wrong with me, i am just not happy anymore.
i cannot figure it out.
everything is routine, and mundane.
nothing seems valid.
i don't feel important, or loved.
nothing i am doing right now seems like it matters.

what is wrong with me?

ATTN: GIRLS.

CARISSA, KELE, JAMIE, ASHLEY F. !

I have been looking at pictures, reading live journals, and thinking about each of you. It has been an eternity since we have gotten together and hung out. I think it is about time, and i think each of us probably need the other right now ( Read more... )

For those of you who haven't already heard, we had to put Bailey to sleep Saturday. He had a really severe brain tumor that was making him really sick. The night before we put him to sleep, he had repeat seizures all night long, lost his vision and hearing and was really disoriented. I really can't remember being this sad in a long time. He was ( Read more... )

i am very unstable.

i want to watch across the universe right now.

it would be suiting.

=D .

i don't know why, but i feel pretty dang okay right now.

plus, i have almost been alive 21 years. birthday tomorrow.

It may seem as though my life is not amounting to much at the moment... but seriously, I am in no hurry to grow up ( Read more... )

i seriously fucking hate this sometimes.

i don't know what to say.

maybe im not as happy as i thought.

Things are going pretty good, I guess. I'm not as sublimely happy as I was not too long ago, but things just don't feel the same, especially at home. My sister has finally moved out, and I am overwhelmed with emotion. I'm not happy for her, like I should be. She isn't happy with herself and until that happens, I'm at a loss. I'm mad at her, ( Read more... )