Somewhere along the way, I have lost sight of myself. It is interesting how you can live without really living... exist, without really feeling, and see without ever opening your eyes. I feel like I am about to bust out of my skin, dying to do something more and too scared to do it. It's funny how life can go on while you're trapped in the ( Read more... )

The rain has subsided now, but the sun still hasn't came out to play ( Read more... )

Dear livejournal,

Why doesn't anyone write in you anymore?

livejournal will never turn it's back on you. it will never quit talking to you when it gets a boyfriend. and it will never hurt your feelings the way another human can.

So, this semester has already started out with a bang! I projectile vomited all over the place for a solid week, went to the hospital, missed two of my social work classes the first week, fell behind, got assigned a book from an author who is a complete douche towel that I have to spend the rest of the semester evaluating in two separate courses, ( Read more... )

I spend most of my time at school and work. When i am not there, carissa and i are off doing something fun or stupid, like getting drunk and playing go-fish, or breaking out in random song of "she'll be comin' 'round the mountain". that is my life right now. if i could ex out school and work, it would be pretty sweet.

It is 6:08 AM. I have no clue why I am awake considering i didn't fall asleep until around 3:30 this morning. I feel surprisingly untired, if that is even a word. It is now. This will be the first day I see a glimpse of the sunrise I have missed many days, many years. Pretty pumped. Granted this will all come back and kick me in the ass by work ( Read more... )

i don't ask for much; not a goddamn thing, really. time is essential and is all i ever request of anyone. i do not feel included. i do not feel important. i don't feel like i am getting anything i deserve. i am not the greatest person, but i am not too shabby of one either. and regardless of whether one loves another or not, is it not ( Read more... )

So, I do not know where to begin. I have finished my third year of college and I am still working at Kroger. Two years. I am working just about 40 hours a week and I feel like I am wasting my summer there. I really want to do things with my summer. Road trips, bonfires, concerts, festivals, the park, the lake, kings island, sidewalk chalk, camp- ( Read more... )

i feel sublimely real, and happy for the time being.

but do one of you fucking even give two shits?