To-to-to, to many drugs. Epiphany: Yea so far its tentative, not even sure where this one is going to end up. What was that song? Drama Summer? No, not even I can accurately predict that one. Secrets? Too many. Lies? Only good when you can get away with them. Guilt? Don't have any unless you can handel it. Absence of god, complete; endless nihilism ( Read more... )

1)Qarmel is gay-sauce
2)I got an industrial peircing! (thanks to miss Bree.)

Baaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh humbug.

It poured today, sometimes I hate the rain because it makes me sleepy and not the same mind. Is it really that disrupting to be in a different frame of mind every once and awhile?

Everyone I'm 19! Wahoo, my birthday has been most advantageous. I would like to thank the people who wished me a happy birthday and all those who will eventually...yes, that means you.

So, tonight I was informed that I had an interview with Starbucks. Now I told myself two things: 1)Being poor sucks ass 2)I would never resort to Starbucks until times got desperate. Considerably times are desperate, but respectively it hasn't been that long that I have been unemployed. I quit Death Juice late February and its now relatively mid ( Read more... )

I am better! Crazy ass hives went away, started chain smoking again, drinking again, new hat and glasses with a pirate braclet. QUIT MUTHA FUCKIN' JAMBA JUICE WHAT UP! Might work at a video store or a pizza/hooka store. Po' and lovin' it. What up.

I have been sick. Real sick. Seven days since Thursday. High fever, a sore throat that was possible strep and just recently a rash that covered my entire body except my face and my no-no area. Went to the doctors, couldn't do squat. So I lay here and wait, until the day I wake up and don't feel like I was just hit by a semi. My nose is starting ( Read more... )

It is funny how being without money kind of throws everything askew. I like being poor, it makes you feel more alone in a crowded world. Despite my all consuming relative poverty, I feel like I can refuse things now. Going out, drugs, friends, family. I started trying to finish Toni Morrison's 'The Bluest Eye' for english and despite the obvious ( Read more... )

Wow, you only realize how fucked up your day can get when the pain of your heart being ripped out and betrayed plays a role.