I was ok for a good while. I was in better spirits. Just as I was going to bed, John texts me talking about how he's been with his new boyfriend and just drove him home. Bleh. I feel sick now. :(

John's away message reads "If you are a friend, ensure that I don't talk to Adrian anymore."

He abandoned me for another boy and blocked me out of his life. I'm not a very happy boy tonight. What a nice Christmas present. :(

Drinking stolen koolaid from Vons, sweetened with stolen sugar packets from Jack in the box just isnt the same without Ziggie being here to share it with. Going down the street to Pinkberry isn't as fun as going there with Ziggie was, either. Indian food buffet isn't quite as tasty. Coca-Cola isnt as refreshing. Watching Black Books isn't as ( Read more... )

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last night we each had a cigarette in silence before he got out of the car in front of his house. When we were done he put the strap of his bag over his arm. We gave each other a long hug and he rested his head on my shoulder. Sealed it with a kiss goodbye, and then he got out and closed the door. I dont think I'll ever see him again.

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Its all white underneathe, but the rest is being really stubborn. At least my hair quality is holding out nicely. After colour remover and bleach its still healthy and strong.


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So Ophelia has been staying with me for about a week before she goes back to NY. I guess during this time, as in as soon as she got here, my Englishboy developed a crush on her. Now Im out of the picture. I dont even sleep in my room anymore. They do. I sleep in the office. I dont blame Ophelia. Its not like she tried to get him to fall for her. I ( Read more... )