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[taiki]

Things in my personal life have gotten bad

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[lunapitty]

As someone who already crossed that 30 line...and in fact just turned 32....it's not as bad as you think it is. I do hope that things start going better for you though, my dear. I think it's just your luck not going so well, but it will turn around. I just know it.

[taiki]

Being single and desperate at 30 is bad. Being 30 isn't bad.

[lunapitty]

Have you thought it's that desperate part that makes your luck bad?

[taiki]

that's why I'm going on the happy pills. If I can be take the stress of being single off my shoulders, the desperation should go away too.

The whole notion of self-worth is strangely tautological. If you feel good about yourself, then people recognize it and good things happen to you so you feel good about yourself. Gee, really?

[pagenfox]

Just be glad you're not near 40 like my sister is. She's only like 4 years from it.

I hope things improve for you soon.

two-part comment

[chaosdancer]

(Part 1) Jaws of time - I'm one of them too. At my back I always hear time's winged chariot hurrying near, just like Andrew Marvell. There's a reason I memorized that poem when I was a teenager

[chaosdancer]

(Part 2) (My stuff & maybe irrelevant, skip if you like - I used to say I looked forward to fifty more than forty, because at forty you're an old young person, but at fifty you get to be a young old person. Now that I'm rapidly approaching fifty, I can't think of anything I'd do as a "young old person" that I wouldn't do now. Join Elderhostel, or the Red Hat Ladies, maybe. But I still just feel like me, really. Not much difference in the essential "me" state of consciousness than there was when I was six. I'm still unskinny; time hasn't changed that. My weird genes mean that a lot of people still mistake me for being in my thirties or (if I'm having a really happy day) even my twenties. I won't deny that feeds my ego, but I'm going to do one petty thing with it - go to my high school reunion and be really, really happy around all the folks who made my life a horrorshow back in the day - and then stop thinking about the whole thing. Might even stop playing with colors for my hair and let the gray come in. Being here, now, is a

[mippa]

Either I'm hideously unattractive or I have the worst luck ever or both.

Do you actually think those are the only two possibilities out there?

[taiki]

No, but it was late and I was pretty grumpy.

In reality it's really complicated. Generally it's just a giant crapshoot, and I'm of the opinion that we largely aren't the masters of our own destiny. If we were, life would be too easy. We could work hard, put massive amounts of effort into something and not worry about failure. Unfortunately, failure is always an option.