if you kill me, i'd be grateful...anyone...please...do it...soon...

If you had one chance to tell someone everything, spill every little detail of truth to everyone, every bad thought, every good, every sin you've done and and every hurt you've ever inflicted, would you? Could you? Can anyone really say that they've told their loved ones everything in complete truth and honesty? No...we all have skeletons in our ( Read more... )

I'm sorry i do the things that upset you. I"m sorry i get depresssed for no reason sometimes. I don't ever mean to drag you down with me. YOu mean alot ot me, adn if i ever don't make you feel that way, forgive me. Please, i love you so much, it would hurt me to louse you, especially if its by my own actions.

So i've been having some intense dreams recently and decided to put them here ( Read more... )

Tell me something. If you try everything for everyone else, make every effort you can for them, and do your best to cheer them up, help them in a time of crisis, or anything like that that requires loyalty, generosity and everything between, and they give nothing back, are they really friends?

I've often wondered about what my drug use has done to my life. how its changed me or how things might of been different if i never did use. And so far, this is what I've come up with ( Read more... )

What You See Cannot Be There

Sleepless in bliss
Standing there in an unknown mist
Your eyes are hazed, your mind is dazed
As you stare out with an endless gaze
What are you seeing?
Why are you there?
Are you waiting to see the evil glare?
I hope your ok, I hope your fine
Because I believe I’m destroying my mind

To the parent who keeps informing my father of these posts, I know who you are and i ask you two things. A: Stop snooping your daughters computer. Their's things some parents just shouldn't know. B: Stop informing my dad about what i write. It makes everything for me a lot more difficult then it already is with my troubles with him, and i really ( Read more... )

Once again, i feel miserable and depressed. I don't think i can get out of it this time by tomorrow. My dad...i have a lot of problems with the way he's trying to do things right now. i think he's under the impression that every hacker in the world is interested in reading what i have to say on this journal. I need to stop caring. I'm afraid i'm ( Read more... )

Drag....dragging along even longer and longer...time
falling....falling forever....me
elusive....rare....awesome...happiness