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[yammerer_willow]

I couldn't believe it. Charles and I were spending time talking then we were making love...I think thats what I could call it, he didn't seem to be complaining and the fact that he was still here when I woke up said a lot too. Part of me wonders if we made the right decision though. I mean, was this the right way to start off a new relationship

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[lawfulgunn]

I felt Willow get up, and for once, I wasn't exhausted in the morning. I got up after she left and went to my room, taking a shower.

I stood there, looking at myself in the mirror before I got into the shower. It was amazing, the healing she did on me. You'd never know I'd been through hell and back. Some part of me wasn't totally okay with that, but I'd deal.

I went to the kitchen and got something to eat. I wondered where Willow was, if she had gone out or was still around somewhere. I missed her, missed being near her. Maybe I could check her office, she might be there.

I lightly knock on the door and open it, seeing her sitting there. I can't help but smile. "Hey...I'm not interrupting anything, am I? Just wanted to see your pretty face."

[yammerer_willow]

"No, just finished." I guess that avoiding the talk thing wasn't going to work for long now was it.

"C..Charles..what are we?" I asked barely above a whisper. I mean I had to know, am I with him, or am I a dirty little secret or something in between. I don't know what brought this on, but what I do know is that his sweet talk and smooth lines say one thing, but I fear the other....am I horrible or what?

[lawfulgunn]

"What are we?" I repeated the question. "I thought we were dating...maybe..." I hoped I wasn't ruining what we had now. "I mean, I'd like to date you, I just, I didn't want to push..."

I didn't want to lose her. I walked into her office and sat in the chair by her desk. "I'm sorry. We're whatever you want us to be. You know how I feel about you, I wish I could shout it from the rooftops."

And now I'm going overboard. "I just want to be with you. So whatever I have to do or be, I will."

[yammerer_willow]

I look away in shame. "I'm sorry..I just...I shouldn't have doubted you." When I finally calm down I look up at him. "I just panicked...you can feel free to ignore my random insanity." After a moment more I turn to Charles take his hands in mine and look him directly in the eyes.

"I want to be for you what you want me to be. I don't want to lose you, lose your touch on my skin, to lose the ability to look into your eyes and fall in love with you with each passing moment...I can't lose that." and did I just say that? Wow, I am all poetic now, goddess help me.