This was written on October 2nd in another blog....enjoy.

I bleed these tears for you

They've never been so red

My hopes, dreams, fantasies

Have now been put to bed

No more pretty flowers

To decorate my thoughts

Just the grey that lies in between

That will eventually help them rot

So why keep crawling into that bed

What's inside your head?

The blood I weep

Is ( Read more... )

I'm losing...

Getting pushed back and tripped up...

Tearing down walls just to watch taller, thicker ones built on the other side...

I'm losing...

Nothing makes sense...

And things never cease to amaze me...

I just want to be in your arms and feel like it's going to be okay...

But I guess you're right..."It's not ok"

lj

Harden your heart child

Let not escape that tear

I know I said lay down your walls

I know I said no fear

I know your heart is breaking

I know you need its touch

But we knew that this would come

You knew this was too much

So hush my child please

Be still once more, my heart

For picking up the pieces

Is by far the hardest part.

lj

Talk about a hostile work environment...(sigh) It pisses me off that they fly in this other person to do the job that I'm supposed to be doing. Instead of teaching me the research (that would have kept me here because that's what I want to do), she'll just wait until Rosie comes in (rolls eyes) well whooptie frickin doo....good for them...if they ( Read more... )

Go to your Calendar and find the first entry for each month of 2005. Post the first line of it in your journal, and that's your "Year In Review ( Read more... )

en a long time and i'm sorry. I have negelected my lj family...I don't think that many of you read any of this but just in case...I'll continue to post. My life is okay...I'm at work right now and I've been here since 7 a.m. I took half an hour for lunch so that I could get out at 4:30 and still get my 9 hr pay...(holiday money, you know)...I'm ( Read more... )

Ay......it's been a long long day ( Read more... )

Well I'm tired and sick...and thinking about way too many things all at once. I guess a lot of people must feel the same way a lot of the time (sigh) it sucks. Well --- is in town and I'm excited and confused all at the same time. Half of me doesn't want to see him because it'll hurt and the other says that I will regret not going to see him. I ( Read more... )

I get so lonely sometimes...I get so attached to people that I know I can't have...why am I so stupid? There are so many questions that I don't have the answers for. The people I love don't want me or use love as an excuse to walk away from me. I'm just looking for good company. Some one to hold me, to love me, to just hang out and watch movies ( Read more... )

Congratulations ( Read more... )