what am i going to do with my life ( Read more... )

i'm excited about this season's real world. is this sad that i'm writing an entry about a tv show? oh well, it's not the first time. one thing i noticed is that i'd hate to be one of the ugly girls, or rather the unwanted ones. i'd feel so bad watching the shows later and seeing that no one wanted to fuck me. hahaha...=P ( Read more... )

i finally found a job, after being threatened by my parents. chuck e. cheese is the blessed place. oh my i love it. actually, we do get some excitement, a little girl got her arm stuck on one of the rides so the paramedics had to come last night, and on wednesday ludacris came in with his family. so...yeah...i'm on top of the fucking world. all ( Read more... )

i think the reason why i'm so fucked up right now is because i have no one to bounce my words off of. no one to make fun of myself and my feelings to. when i'm alone, i take myself too seriously. i need to lighten up and get over myself. and i look extremely unattractive when i don't smile. if that's the only reason to change my attitude, so be it ( Read more... )

my days have consisted of reading. i'm quite enjoying myself, although it's a guilty pleasure. marie, i got the second summer book and finished the ones you gave me ( Read more... )

i need to stop thinking and being so fucking emotional.
i need a job.
i need a hug.
i need you to care.

i'm feeling crappy. the end of the school year is always stressful for me...and many others i'm sure. as much as i want school to be over, and as much as i want to go home and have my own room...i'm just going to miss christopher so much. i know i know...i'm being totally pathetic...but i can't help it, that's just how i am. but before i leave, i ( Read more... )

i'm not o fucking k.

jealousy is the worst emotion...it leads to so much trouble. maybe i need to be more secure. so how to go about doing that? uhhhhh, but when i start thinking like that i just sink lower than i was to begin with..."maybe if i was skinnier, or prettier, or smarter, or funnier, or more...SOMETHING, just better ( Read more... )

i had a very nice christmas. chris came down to surprise me...sigh...i was all afraid about being away from him all break, but i've actually been with him the whole time. it's nice though and things are getting better. =) so break was kinda short-lived, i'm already back in tally. but nothing was going on, at least not to my knowledge. and i have ( Read more... )