well, today was...alright...not good...not bad...just...*trails off into mindless babble ( Read more... )

well, today is quite possibly the worst day i've went through in quite a while...i think its because im lonely...i dont know...I really despise how my life revolves around nothing more than work and my computer, these days...it makes life hard knowing that it refuses to change...i dont see why my life has gone to hell so fast...it seemed near ( Read more... )

ok, wasnt my last post on my last one...i just wanted to write a poem...for everyone to...laugh at...cus im a horrible writer ( Read more... )

well, im not going to say anything about what i meant by my subject...but, I definitely "get" to do the hardest thing on earth here within the next couple of days...anyway, Cindy came over today, said that(basically) im not a good person, she doesnt trust me, and she cant give dawna and i another chance...sweet. awesome. my life sucks...but, ( Read more... )

that mikhail going out with abbie would cause so much fucking drama...the way people are acting, is fucked up. namely with jessica...chelsea...a couple others...theyre just the ones ive really seen on LJ that pissed me off...i dont think that its right to give two people shit just because theyre going out...for instance, if either of you so happen ( Read more... )

well, today was great....until dawna's mom showed up...then my life went from semi-decent, to Fucked up. i hate cindy. but, i understand her perspective...doesnt mean i honor it, but i understand it...(heres what happened ( Read more... )

well, today has been one big, fat, bad mood...just missing dawna...and wishing that she were the daughter of someone else...someone more...liberal...i dunno...either way, i love her....always will...and i WILL marry her someday, im sure...anyway...im EXTREMELY tired...1:11am...or so...definitely worked from 9-3:30, then from 8-10:45...im way tired ( Read more... )

well, finally got mike's music library on my computer...strangely...it doesnt make my day any better...i really hate my job. i really hate the way i cant just sit down, and look into dawna's eyes without her parents flipping a bitch. i hate the way no matter what, my life just doesnt get any better. i hate my life...i think the ONLY reason i stay ( Read more... )

today was....alright....most of it SUCKED, but the hour and a half i spent with dawna, was the epitome of perfection...i love her so much. she's awesome. i miss soooo many people...I was listening to myself sing earlier today, and realized how i really do suck. people tell me i dont, but...wow...i really do...i have so many insecurities...i got a ( Read more... )

well, tonight was the first time i've stayed up all night in a long time...its currently 8:20 am...im pretty depressed right now...i miss dawna. it seems that no matter what i do to make myself happy, it boils down to "i miss dawna, and wish more than anything that i could just be with her, and have everything happy as hell" but, until she is 18, ( Read more... )