i have no fucking clue how i feel right now...i want to see lindi...but im confused on what she wants...i wish to god that i could give it to her...but she is still disappointed with herself...i wish she could be happy...and stop apologizing for things that she doesnt need to apologize for....hopefully one day she will be cumfy with me and be able ( Read more... )

im actually at michaels talking things out...o.o...and lindi is unhappy with herself and there is nothing i can do...-.-...which sucks...o.o....i love her sooo....but i feel that i am keeping her from being happy....i think that she wants to be happy with me....but i dont know what she thinks....i love her sooo fucking much....o.o....*sigh*....i ( Read more... )

I love how you hold me. I love how you tell me I'm beautiful (even though I don't believe it). I love how you look at me funny when I say something stupid. I love how you make me happy. I love how you smile when I see you and I love how you laugh when I say something random or just stupid. I love how you ask me if I'm alright when I can't stop ( Read more... )

last night i had this nifty page of typing done....lol...but me being the dumbass that i am i forgot to push that neat little udate button before i closed the window =3....i am soooo teh looohzaaaar!!...lol...rarws....jusss like a chocobo...^_^....god...im goin to the movieees friday with lindi...and some of her friends that i havent seen since the ( Read more... )

GOD DAMNITT....hmmm....well....i have no fucking clue why i am in a bad mood...i just am....i guess its all of the shit that has been happening...lol...even thought none of it has been really bad except for stevens case....lol....i still find time in my life to complain about it....how fucking wonderful is that?...i wish lindi was here...she could ( Read more... )

Steven and i just finished Halo 2.....and all i have to say is HOLY FUCKING HELL!! GOD FLIPPIN DAMNIT....WHAT THE FUCK?? HOLY SHIT...IN THE NAME OF ALL THINGS HOLY FUKING SHIT!!!!*insert 10 min of violent cussing*....it pissed me the fuck off... they better make another halo game....so Master Chief can kick the fuck out of the prophets....and ( Read more... )

AZ was great....soo flippin awesome!!! soo many cool people....i miss it....i have Officially become a Sake Ninja....still called the Ninja Joad....lol...it was awesome....im actually tired though....*sigh*....sooo whats been up with you guys?!?!hmmmm.....Llama.....yupp...thats abt all i have to say.....Llama.....o.o...-.-

hmmmmm i honestly feel like shit...lol...*sigh*...for those of you who call me friend....im sorry...im a shitty one...and lindi...i am most utterly sorry for all that i have put you through....i dont know what to do....all of my family (cept for the "fuck ups") tell me that i lie, and cant keep one story...and change plans disregarding theirs.... ( Read more... )

wellss den.....LOL.....here's sumthin for ya....a "Mountain Loin" killed our dog yesterday....literally....her throat and chest were just a cavity in her carcass....and she was mangled....blood was everywhere...even the side of the barn.....yeah...and my stepdad who is VERY emotional...had to bury her by himself...o.o....sister has moved back in ( Read more... )

hmmm....well my sister hates me....my stepbrother is pissed off at me for my stupidity.....my family is trying to do the good thing that families do and look out for me but its only making me paranoid.....i almost felt the urge to hospitalize my stepfather....i cant find a room at az to put mine and stevens stuff..not bodies...just our bags...how ( Read more... )