For a while I thought I belonged in a loony bin. Many shrinks have told me that I will probably never be able to function in society as a normal person. Ive been told Ill probably never be able to hold a job or a relationship for more than half a year. The longest I have ever held a job was about 8 months, longest Ive held a relationship was about ( Read more... )

You had just turned 18. We were about to travel together. I feel that if I hadnt stalled, if I hadnt wanted to leave later and we had hit the road you would have still been alive. Damnit, I love you man!

No one else is allowed to die. Ive lost 7 friends in the past 3 years. Fuck!

I cant even bring myself to eat right now.

In the opening scene my friend Kyle and I were getting lectured by our boss. We worked at a store called "MegaMart" inside of some giant mall complex. It was your basic department store. We were security guards. I forgot my badge and shirt so I was getting chewed out for it. the boss gave me a weapon to apprehend people with. He told us that things ( Read more... )

Since Ive last posted in here I went to Hawaii and back. I did some volunteer work out there cleaning up the southern beach of the big island. All the trash blows in there from Asia and the place was a disaster. We worked hard everyday and partied hard every night. For a little while I worked on a farm out there too, but the beach had free camping ( Read more... )

Many groundbreaking theories were founded by those who fought convention and thought outside the box ( Read more... )

I consider myself a shamanic pagan taoist. I believe strongly in karma, I also believe in reincarnation, and the fact that you can reach a nirvana/heaven if you reach enlightenment/sainthood, otherwise you just get reincarnated again because of earthly attachments. I believe this world is a beta test upon which your next life will be constructed. I ( Read more... )

I am sad for my love has left me. She is with me no more. I am now the lone sorcerer in my tower; reading from my tombs and refining the art of alchemy. My life has frozen in solid motion and I may not move on until I do "something". I have been heald captive by Sekhmet. Ive lost touch with Maya ( Read more... )

this journal is 2003-2007. Another one is '05-07, another one is 02-03 one is '02 - 05

Dont ya hate it when you try your hardest to forget somebody, and they keep coming back into your life, seemingly at random? Look for me to post more soon.

aright, Im finally done with this thing....peace out