Last year i wrote this ( Read more... )

everything feels different now and i love it.

i never knew it could be like this. i really didn't.

Building a new relationship from the ground up, fully solid, fully stable, continues to be more rewarding than anything that i have ever experienced ( Read more... )

i hate resenting every wonderful memory but i do ( Read more... )

the dreams are by far the worst part.
no control and no filter.
and then i wake up and nothing has changed.

Things keeping me alive:
-Yogi Calm Tea
-Charlotte
-Cameron
-Madame Bovary
-Pema Chodron
-Social Inquiry
-St. Johns Wort
-My mom
-Writing all day, everyday
-Bannana chocolate chip muffins from Whole Foods
-Tri-blend leggings

Things killing me:
Pretty much everything else.
Especially christmas.

letting go and holding on with the same amount of force ( Read more... )

"lift your head, dry your eyes, it can be done"

at least i hope so.

its a constant dull ache.

which i suppose is how it should be.

i love it