ive been having chocolate attacks every night at 9 ( Read more... )

the continues smell of weed in my room is comforting on so many levels. and today it fits the incredible foggy, moist(ew) rainforest like weather. it reminds of the beginning of the school year...but not. because i know there is an end...at least a break ( Read more... )

i need to let go of the idea that i am failing. that i am letting people down.

Its not my fault
Its not my fault
Its not my fault
Its not my fault
Its not my fault...

i was supposed to do so much better than this.

im trying to bury my bitterness and resentment...
but i feel like i was so deserving...

im just so angry.
why am i the only one?

wheres my 5-htp at yo?

shit.

i feel like ive found something that ive been missing for a long time.

but its all going to disapear all at once.

which may make it 100 times worse.

the prospect of growing up and the knowledge that the decisions that i will be making may actually determine things is overhelming and incredibly terrifying ( Read more... )

well thats that.
and its wonderfully heartbreaking.
or heartbreakingly wonderful.
either way...there's nothing that could take the wonderful part away.

and everything esle is secondary.

i know exactly how i feel and what i want.

but i would never ever say it out loud.

it just wouldnt be fair.

can this quarter please be over now?
thanks.

1. Yourself: rollercoaster(thats one word..right ( Read more... )