Drip...drip...drip...Scarlet rain splatters into a small pool in my hands. I sit in darkness but I know the dark red of this rain. Soon the small pool over flows, runs down my legs spills onto the floor. I am too weak to move in to much pain to do anything but try to hold the small flood with my feeble hands.

I was once strong, drip...drip... ( Read more... )

So its been quite a while since I posted publicly on here. Now this site seems a bit more anonymous with facebook/myspace etc...taking off. Over the last two years I have really been struggling with Depression. I had kind of a crash and went to a hospital wed/thur this week. I feel the need to kinda put this stuff down and if anyone sees it and ( Read more... )

 
Bustin my mad rhymes in the end times where right
is a crime and the wicked and slime have all the dimes.
I’m drinking and thinkin from the vine of eternal shine,
watchin the wicked whine and cry'n before they pay the fine.
Its not the game today that you gotta play but the one that goes on for eternity.
You get paid, laid, made in the shade 
but ( Read more... )

1.)        Thoughtfulness  (bad days can melt away if this is properly applied)

2.)        Tigers               (even though on occasion they sell out to cereal companies or maim taunting teenagers)

3.)        Tangerines        (Citrus heaven)

4.)        Thai food           (MMMMMMMmmmmmmmmmmmm)

5.)        Tea                   (Especially Chai)

6.)     ( Read more... )

Why do we ((sleep)) in [[school]],

But stay ((awake) through a [[3 hour movie]]?

Why is it so ((hard)) to talk about [[God]],

but so ((easy)) to talk about [[sex]]?

Why are we so ((bored)) when we look at a [[Christian magazine]],

but find it ((easy)) to read [[Playboy]]?

Why is it so easy to ((ignore)) a [[Godly]] myspace bulletin,

Yet we ((repost)) the ( Read more... )

 
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Standing before me as they last were in life, two of them little more than skin and bone, bald heads with grayish veins covering their skin, cadavers with only the most limited life left, the other’s hair grey and white is long and mussed the right side of her face is bloody from bruising and her bright blue eyes are flecked with blood clots. ( Read more... )

Well I will try to summarize the 1st 36 hours or so of my trip into TX. It was a remarkable example of the chaos that seems to creep up on me.

The purpose of this trip was to lay my Father’s remains at my Mother’s grave, visit my recently deceased uncle’s grave, and see my relatives whom I have not seen in literally 20 years .My Aunt scheduled the ( Read more... )

Well I have arrived here in Houston TX, and things have been Incredibly interesting. In less than 24 hours I have dealt with 3 tow trucks,but I'm good and getting ready to go do the hard stuff for this day. I will have to post more later, there is already a ton to tell from just yesterday but things are very busy.

Pain
Mother taken, along with my innocence
Life showing me so young what pain really is, hers and mine
Wounds from that day poked and prodded by the callousesnes of youth
Misery, Gluttony, Escape

A pinpoint of light at the end of the tunnel becoming larger and brighter
My life is getting better after such a loss
I become a beam of pure will. So focused
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