Bad day

[talrog]

How can one be so low so loathsome so full of self-hate? All paths leading into a darkness of one kind or another. There is no hope only despair, suffocating and engulfing all. Dying in small ways emotionally, physically, spiritually. Two steps forward leads to being drug roughly over broken glass and rusty metal back further and further. Still

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[zahdi]

I don't know. I wanted to be a psychiatrist once cause I really like helping others through pain and desolation. It's like that love of seeing things made right that I wrote about in my last post.

In metaphysics, it's said that the world responds to your thoughts and your innermost desires. If you change your soul's desires, you'll see a change in what the world offers you. I see the obstacles and the message as a direct message from the world that it CAN NOT offer you any more or less than what you expect and (are secretly addicted to in terms of energy) for yourself. What I've been learning for myslef recently is that when true happiness peeks in through my dark clouds it's absolutely terrifying.

-- Zahdi has to go to D.C.

[therokenman]

So your saying he should think happy thoughts?

[zahdi]

No, asshole. "Happy thoughts" are dumb. Really dumb. I'm saying that he should wean off his addiction to depression. He should think TRUE thoughts, dipshit. Then maybe he'll see TRUTH... which might still be depressing, but at lest it'll be true.

-- Zahdi has no patience for your remarks.

[therokenman]

What is wrong with happy thoughts?

For that matter, what is wrong with civil discourse?

Oh, and what are 'true thoughts'? Or perhaps more importantly, what 'true thoughts' do you feel he should be thinking?

remember when u told me

[caroldustbunny]

i was special. I read that the day after I had spent all day in bed, crying and eating pasta and ice cream. If i told you, you were really special too, and that if you weren't a jesus loving freak I would totally make out with you, would that make you laugh? ahhahaa, i hope it did. I guess you have to keep going cause u dont have a choice, anyway, i think its funny the gun store called, I think its funny cause if we didnt think it was funny, then what would we do? I think more importantly though, that you have some good friends who care about you and that is a good reason to keep going, cause being the guy who lets ur friends down is a bummer.. I hope u realize that I am trying to be funny, cause sometimes laughing helps more than the hugs, although if i was in VA i would totally come give you a hug. I havent slept a lot in a few days and that is my excuse. love ya Bri.

Re: remember when u told me

[talrog]

Thanx big bunches, I was saddened moreso by your post because things are not going so well for me and I am/was really down. So I wanted to cheer you up but wasn't really feeling so good myself. Reading your response here did make me smile and give me that little warm spot feel in the heart. I really needed it too,Love ya right back <3

Re: remember when u told me

[talrog]

Ummmm....in addition I think Jesus would be ok with us making out as long as I was really guilty afterwords. Hope that made you smile :)